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todae was the first time i met him.
and he was practically late fer half an hour lar!
i like wait and wait-
than finally i saw this guy walking towards me.giving me dat smile.
apparently he didnt went work todae and had to go to pasir ris to take MC.
so i was like..okay..lets go. lols x)
during the ride to pasir ris..it was damn weird can?!
we didnt talk at all..it was like omg so tension la.
than while waiting fer the doctor to call his number,
we sat outside and decided to talk.
and it was like,i told him most of what i had to said.more to the reason why im feeling so akward.
1)after 6 years..i met him and talk to him.
2)he is like the first malay guy ive dated and im wif.
3)im not used to talking like malay most of the time la. so a bit kaku when i talk.
than i think he noticed i was getting restless.
than he like ask me" can i do something to u?"
i was like.."hmm..wad thing?"
than he put his hand around me...awww.
lols..like about time la. and i layed on his shoulder.
hahhas..okk. so after the doctor we went to white sands to eat.
as usual i didnt eat much and smiled 3/4.
which made him even more wondered.
we took 89 to go home.drop at hg.
than we took train bak to pg.
and i took 62 wif him.lols.
got explicit content..so shant write here. hahas! no lar jking x)
so wads my conclusion fer my first date wif him?

1)hes a sweet and loving guy.
2)he loves to look at me which made me irritated.
3)the way he hold me feels so right~
4)he has a tender touch.
5)the way he looks at me,can really make my heart beats veri fast.
6)im starting to fall for him veri much.

toodles~ =)

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28.01.08

a new start fer me to challenge myself.
loneliness has overtake me.
i needed sumone to fill my empty heart.
and i never thought that he wuld walk into my life after 6years~
who would have thought my admirer or crush in pri sch wuld be the one im dating now?
lols and i wuld have never expected to knw that he like me also.haas~
la-la-la-la.

I LOVE MY TAUFIQ~! =)

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wow! is like i finally get to talk to my pri sch frens.
and to catch up wif dem,was like totally sweet! =D
had a veri great time chatting wif taufiq and rosli.LOLS.
and this morning that rosli go and play mind games wif me can?
i was barely half awake larh,and he said he was taufiq and irfan.GRR.
and i fell fer it like twice and thrice.
i so wanted to screw the freaking hell out of him.
frm pri sch he was like dat u knw.dammit.hahahs.

aniwaes.todae had food testing fer feb promotion.
it was like yay-ness! the food is like nice-nice.
and best of all i had a few look-to-look incidents wif the korean guy!
hahahas. and he like smiled at me one point of time.
WOW! im like "how i wish..i can be wif him" -_-
arghh. 11 of jan is his last day. than he will go bak to holland V.
going to miss him can? haix.
i wana like sleeeeeep now.bbyes.

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for a minute im happy wif whats coming next in my life.
than for a second later im like worried,scared,angry.
i dun believe im trying to do so hard so dat i can to go to the sch of my dreams.
and it sucks more when u are like doing it for urself.
i mean as in no one else is dere to stand by you.
only i know what it feels like.
and only i will get to enjoy my pure hard work.insya-Allah.
at first i resist whatever is happening to me.
than as i realise..is better to go wif the flow.
i gave dat advice to my fren who is in the same situation as me.
she is suppose to go to a hotel sch in swiss. diff sch frm me.
sumhow her parents ask her to do in sg first than 2 years time go dere study.
shes like disheartened and angry wif her parents.
i dun blame her..i went thru dat.
i didnt see the idea why i had to study in sg,juz bcos is not professional job.
and i realise to sumtimes prove to people that u are actually capable needs determination.
so ive decide to work fer what my dreams are.
if still the day i depart doesnt make them realise how much this means to me,
than only they have fail. cuz i work so hard not to juz get dem frm dis.

and to always remember this.
Allah will never give us hurdles that we cant make thru.

another day passed by.
im yet to reach out to my dreams.
when the day comes,i will be the most happiest person there is. =)
i will believe my day will come.

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i miss my disneylands la.
darn, for the past 2 days i keep viewing the disneyland website.
frm hongkong to tokyo to paris.
ahh bummer. i really wana go to tokyo within this 3 years.
so by the time i go study at swiss,they will organise to go paris disney.
than like dat im left wif USA punyer.
crapp...whatever am i thinking now.

haix,im starting to miss my korean guy seh.
im like..can i work already?
now is the period..i dun mind OT.
after they go bak to holland V than u can give me long holiday! hahas x)
another infactuation or wadever it is being called.

hmm..my sister chalet hopefully will be okay seh.
i dun believe my cuzzin ask her sister to skip sch!
OMG. better dun let ur parents find out.
wad am i ever to say.LOLS. hehes =D
im not approving it,bud at least is not dat bad.
hehes.

bak to wrk tmr!

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Yesterday was yaya farewell and heidi burfdae.
i swear im missing yaya terribly a lot.
shes such a gd fren,companion,listener,motivator.
most importantly she was like a SISTER TO me.
she completes my day whenever im having a crappy day at work.
i treasure much our friendship.
wishing her 101% best of pure luck for her new police career.
shes gonna do extreme great and muz be feeling happy! hehes,the pay is more! =D
we promised to keep in touch.
pictures of the farewell will be uploaded soon..hmm.

ouhh work fer the past 2 days has been very crazy.
my body and leg is aching.
okok..despite all this..had to admit something.
i was like having a WOW time looking at the kitchen staff.HHAHAS!
there are like 2 of dem attachment frm Holland Village.
and im like so over heels fer this guy that randomly i call him "the korean guy".
i dunnoe why..bud he is like the kind which make u like cant stop looking.
i tink 3/4 of my time i was more interested in sending food so that can see him. =p
bud sadly he is gona be here for a short while..haix. =(
life has been crazy fer me.
someone make the time stop fer me if u can... -_-

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HaPPy 9 MONTHS of AttaCHmEnt to ME!

whee-im left wif 3 more months of staff life.
seriously im gona miss staff life. haix.
responsibility is lesser bud still..
so many thinghs have been going on.
wrk is like crap as usual.no diff.lols
thinghs are gona be diff bud i hope everything will work out.

im loving it [NOT!]

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HaPPy 21st BirThday To KenT!

aww..and im missing this fella a lot.
haix.why does he has to transfer to T3?
so not fair! after all we are shortage of kitchen staff here...
he is a really gd soul,fren and cook =D
i really hope he will drop by chinatown one day.
hehhes x)

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hey diary.
im on my long holiday right now.brr.
and u noe wad,the more i stayed at home the more problems i start to think.

and ive never thought i would say dis..bud i miss going bak to wrk.
okay i noe is like "AM I FER REAL?"
juz now yanling ask me to cum down bak to wrkplace.
i thought i wuld get to see yaya..bud i didnt managed to.
everione look so gd in the new uniform can? so smart and class! =D
and i was urging to talk to so many people.
i get to try the new breakfast menu,hehes.
seriously i felt so happy when i came down juz now.
it was like crapping and laughing the whole time.
i get to talk to min about his problems.
it juz felt so gd. well,can say in a way people miss me la =p
hehs,i knw im like so lovable.lOLS.
i also get to hear problems arising. juz hope everything will be okay =)
im starting to miss yaya already =(

ouh and tmr is kent's burfdae. his turning 21. like FREEDOM.
WOW! i was so happy fer him juz now =)
tmr than put in my blog wish him big happy burfdae.hehs x)

till than.-

maybe im juz too hurt that i dun even know wads real animore.

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well exact on this date,1 months time my sis will be departing.
we went to airport juz now to bring bak the memories.
haix,and terminal 1 holds so many memories...bummer.
frm my cuzzy flew off to syria than my ex flew off to london...
next in line is my own sister flying off to tasmania.

this weird thing happen juz now okay.
is like we went to the viewing gallery at terminal 1,
than juz so hapeen there were 3qantas planes
and behind the 3rd qantas airplane there was a swiss aeroplane.
we were like freaking out can?
is like a signage or sumthing like dat la.
the qantas airplanes means dat my sis is like flying off soon already.
and the number of qantas airplanes is like [3].
and in like [3] years time it will be my turn to take the swiss airplane.

im like having headache thinking about the dinner farewell.
than my sis nyer celebration.
sadly we wont be having chalet.
sorry to disappoint my cuzzins.
we will be having dinner. insya-Allah it will be a memorable dinner kies.
im like so cramped despite having such a long holiday la.darn.
i wana go bak to work ironically.
and all my friends miss me at work =D!
i will be bak on friday! not to worrys =)

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HAPPY 15th Burfdae to my dearest CUzzy NiSa! =D

&

HaPPy 20th BurfDae to my locker work mate FriScA! =D

wow is like dats fast that the both of them has turn another year older.
hmm..and to think i have like 11 more months to go b4 im like 18-legal -_-"

to cuzzy:may Allah bless you always okay. ure a very special cuzzin indeed.
thanks a lot fer the warm advice. make me feel want to cry and there are people like you who care. i appreciate it much =)
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any case my saddening 2008 hasnt been so great for me.
this morning i broke the whole frozen ice.
ive agreed to work fer 2-3 years to save up on my own education.
juz to make my parents and sis happy and not to worry.
is like im putting up a real fake smile ever and it HURTS so bad.
and to think that my own parents said indirectly that mine is not as important as my sis. how am i suppose to even feel or react?
my heart is so heavy and full of pure sadness.
and i swear i never had this dengki or jealousy feeling towards my sis when she wants to go overseas and study. she deserves the best for sure.
i juz wish my parents had felt dat i was important in a way.
and to even think that they had never liked what i wanna do from the beginning.
reality hurts. bud wad sucks more is when ur parents have like no hope or even no liking to what you wanna do.
ive been crying every single night now.
im feeling so empty.
can someone take the pain away and fill my heart with the love that i realy need?

footpriints.X))

after reading what my sis had put in her blog,
ive decided to drop every single idea completeley.
and i tink dis means=stop studying.dats it.
i will juz work and find ways to support myself.
it doesnt matter. what i want to do in life is not great.
be an fnb manager is not dat great,bud hey at least is a job ryte?
all of a sudden i feel like hotel is nothing animore.
and i thought this wuld be my chance to prove to everione im capable,bud it seems,haix.
i cry also is maybe to think i will never get to reach my dream.
tak per la..if dis is what Allah has planned fer me,than let it be.
i will juz move wif the flow. rather than resisting it..is okay.
if deres ever a chance fer me to go study at HTMI,than there will be.
sadness and loneliness is taking over me.
i wana scream?

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morning diary =D
a beautiful saturday.
bud defeniteley a disappointed me.
i slpet thru ytd nite by crying the whole nite.
and when i told my sis i will be okay the next day..
yeah it sure helped a bit. mt heads feel lighter.bud not my goldfish eyes.
there was no point in getting angry when the facts are already written.
i threw away my beloved swiss school brochures into the bin.
still reluctantly not wanting to pick it up at all.
maybe is because Allah gave me a heart dat is more to compassion,
dats why i can never be angry or talk bak to my parents.
i feel like ditching the idea of sudying and juz continue working life.
bud is dat what i realy want?
all i ever wanted is to see the world and be the best manager there is.
a very hard drive passion bud yet no one understands anything.
im tired of trying to show how much this means to me.
i know is not a professional job,bud is something all i ever want to do!
ive made up my mind.
since theres no way my parents can pay fer my sch fees,
i will work and earn the money myself.
thank god the sch has 2 intakes each year.
insya-Allah,wif god guidance i hope i can go by next year August.
it will be crazy if i miss this opportunity,furthermore,
ive receieved 1 year exemption. instead of 3 years-only 2 years!
and that really helped a lot seh.
bus sadly,neither my parents bother to hear anything bout dis.
i was so happy after i left the interview..excited to tel dem when ive reached hm.
bud in the end it was their words..actually a single word to trash down my dream.
Juz a single straight and direct word.."NO".
how will u feel when all ur life uve wanted to do something that you know is in you..ur passion...and sumone has to juz tell you off like dat without bothering to hear how is the whole thing like?
i swear..i wanted to write in how is the whole programme like in the blog.
bud is all trash to dem at the end of the day.
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is time i learn how to earn and support myself.
since i want it,i will work for it myself.

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this is my last and final semester.
im like starting to freak out.
final semester means final project is approaching.ARGH.
i have no idea how im going to pull thru.

besides dat.
friday i have an interview wif the HTMi school wif edulink.
is at 4:30pm and im double freaking out la.
have to bring my syllabus and o levels cert.
sial arh..dunnoe can make it thru a not seh.
im like hoping for the best can?
trying out fer 2009 jan intake.
okay wadever.
so not feeling gd. i wana go slp.
ouh and my hair not much of a difference when i cut dis time.brr.

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i had no idea what went wrong in this friendship btw me and him.
im tired of being the one who juz accepts his blunt mistakes and pretend nothing happened.
do i look so plastic to u? DO I?
is it cuz i cared and i liked him too much dat i negelect wad i feel?
it seems that is how it went.
sometimes i think that both of us are like compatible.
than all of a sudden think again..when we argued,is LIKE SO NOT SEH.
i have no idea why i still like him,after he upsets my feelings again and again.
can i screw him? argh.

i met up wif elson and haziqa.
seriously i nvr felt so much happy and full of love b4.
for once it feels great when someone is envy of u.HAHHAS!
and i miss haziqa terribly much.
we were like hugging each other infront of elson.LOLS.
and elson was like rolling his eyes and saying "lesbian"-hehs
i really hope i can meet up wif the both of dem sumday.
I MISS N LOVE THE BOTH OF U! =D

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and today is like jan5. dats fast. no dats slow.
one family went to orchard hotel to hear fer my sis living in tasmania.
pretty cool place if u ask me seriously.
bud kinda sad thou im not going to study dere.
so is like after dat we went to the grand ballroom to check out my schools.
there are like 3 schools in total.

1)ICHM[international college of hotel management]
2)ASHM[australian school of hotel management]
3)Le Cordon Bleu-Paris

now to like choose btw these 3.

the (1) school is my top preference.
cuz it covers 3 years full- swiss diploma plus 6months [bachelors degree]
so total i need 3.5 years to get my diploma and degree.
plus paid attachments every 6months all around the world.
you get to choose where u want ur attachment to be,how cool is dat?
the fees are a bit costly,but it covers all the uniform and textbooks.
and the staying villa-apartment is like damn nice can?
i so like how the whole course is structured.
the location is at adelaide.

the (2) school i juz need to do my degree fer 2.5-3 years.
i know this may seems better. bud arh,im not dat highly keen?
the degree i will be doing is from southern cross university.
is okay la the programmes and such. bud there is no in-campus accomodation.
plus textbooks and uniforms fees are not included.
cuz the school is located in the city.bummer.
bud the fees are much lower a bit.

the (3) school is a mystery.
cuz i didnt realy go racky at the exhibition booth juz now.darn.
bud frm based on the internet...
is like 2.5 years fer the bachelors degree.
and the price a bit costly. and not included of uniform and accomodation.
theres no in-campus living. bleahs.
this is also located at adelaide.
location is at perth.

haiya,and i have to turn 18 b4 enrolling lers.
so most prob my mum say i have to go for 2009 jan intake.
so frm wad i seeing fer my 2008 is gonna happen is dat,
my attachment finishes in april,school ends in may.
than i might consider taking up full-time supervisor post bak at swensens.
frm july till december,to gather my own cash.
than hopefully in btw june-dec,i get to enroll myself in one of the 3 schools.
kinda messy a bit. bud hey,i need dis fer my future.
i need to prove some people wrong.

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what a great way to start 2008.
feeling lost and confused.
bud i decide to let it all happen on its own accord.
maybe one day than he will know what i meant.
and right now im falling sick.bummer.

p1 has begin fer my little sis,yeps.
shes doing great =) hahas.

days till my sis fly off.haix.
so much thinghs to plan and do.darn.
why me? is all fer the sister love gitu kan.

wad am i trashing now?
oh well. 2008 is gona be one extreme ride fer me.

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my resolutions fer 2008! haas =)

1)punch in to work early-not on time or later than that!
2)have fun at work. smile more.
3)enjoy my last few months at work.
4)have a better view of my future studies..hopefully x)

2007 has been crazy year fer me.
there were extreme bad moments and sweet memorable ones.
bud im glad 2007 is coming to an end-
im so looking forward to 2008! whee! =)

to all my love ones:

HAPPY NEW YEAR,2008!!!!!!!
have a fabulous year everione.
hugs and kisses-vina =)


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