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HaPPy 74th BuRfDAE to My Nek TiK! (:

my grandmother is so active despite the age.
mum bought fer her cake frm polar.
hahahs,thats the best shot i can get.wheee =)
i love u my granny! (:
and so sweet of my cuzzy to call all the way frm orlando to wish granny hapy burfdaez!
hoho,u were searching fer me kan cuzz? hehehs. i miss u too!


i want to leave the place asap.
so at least complete one month not so bad kan.
i had a gd talk wif cecilia about the matter.
she was such a great listeneer and so full of loves (:


well i finally told ah heng that i was going to resign.
and he was frigging sad and bummed out.
i rather tell him now than last min.
i have to do something bout it or else.
i know there are going to be a few heart pains.
sort of going to break my promise wif him and heidi.
im gona miz dem la.
bud i have to be firm wif my decision or else,i will neva move on frm the place.

to cuzzy nisa:
thanks fer the wishes to brighten up my day.
and as i said,i want to spend time wif my cuzzys dis year.
looking forward to june fer sure! =)


to sis:
the resignation letter quick sent me hor.
and go find jobs fer me quick
the faster i can go dere,the better! x)
study hard ohkay.
i will be dere b4 u know it (:
LOVEEE YOUUU!


and huge thanks to sis & fatima.
i didnt expect a huge fall ytd.
i guess im a bit better now.i think.
thinghs change.people change.love changes every single second.
tell me if i was blinded by love.sighs.
it will take more than juz time.
i need a change. a new life.
i need to let go of the past and not cling on to it.
is not going to bring him bak neither is going to help me move forward.
im starting by letting go of the job.
bud i will neva let go of the people there.
whatever i plan keeps changing again and again.
so now i shall go wif the flow.
wad i feel i wana do i juz do.
hey im juz 17 turning 18 u know.
there are still lots more to be discovered ;)
till than.
thank u fer being dere. this also goes to my cuzzys! (:
love u guys to pieces.

vina(:

have u ever come to a point where the world seems to just stop?
and nothing else matters in this whole damn world?
and all u want to do is to turn bak to the time when that something comes existence to ur memory fer the veri first time in ur life?
is either u prevent it frm happening or u make sure it doesnt enters in ur life.
bud since we cant forsee the future.how do we react to the situation when it is already happening?
like the last thing u wana that something to happen?
do u breakdown? do u vent ur anger at sumone? do u attempt stupid thinghs?
or do u contmeplate about the matter and try to move on?

my world stopped fer a few seconds and wonder whether i was still alive.
the truth hurts.cant agree more.
that 20mins felt like 20 years,
i wanted it to last for so so so much more.
bud what happens when the sweetness mixed with a hurting truth?
seriously,i juz do not know how to react.
i couldnt cry.neither i could shout over the phone.
all i could feel was my heart breaking like a million pieces silently.
i was lost for a minute. no..it felt like im lost forever.
b4 i knew it the line was cut off. b4 he culd consoled me in a way.
i didnt txted bak nor did i run to the shop to get another calling card.
i was juz staring at the ceiling wondering where did i went wrong.
tears couldnt run down.
the truth is pressing down so hard on me.
bud shit,my heart doesnt want to accept it no matter how broken it is.
bye.

vina:(

im juz dead tired.

next week schedule not so great.

more OT's.

at this rate im sick of working already.

ive made up my mind.

im leaving before the trip.

what im going to do after that,im juz gona rest for awhile.

take care of my younger sister till im done wif my final project.

than maybe move to hotel line after that?

ive talked to my parents about it.

mum was still like "are u sure about dis?"

and i was like "yeah.is my decision aniwaes".

to not make me think about the matter,

i swear i had the urged frm last week to msg or call him.

my previous entries i did blog in that i was gona get the calling card.

than juz now during lunch he txted me.

i was like veri surprised.

and he asked me why i neveer call him,like was i dat busy in a way.

i felt bad,cause it has been exactly one month since i told him i wuld call him soon.
i didnt realise one month passed by so fast.

so xinying helped me to get the card (:

THANK U VERI MUCH (:

on my way bak home,i asked whether he wanted me to call him todae or tmr.

so he told me that he was working at dat point of time n he veri busy.

so like awaiting fer his msg to call him.

i wana watch movie wif xinying! (:

wheee (:

thats xinying(: and dats retardedly me :(

okay better shot of me. bud shes not looking at the camera!

my decision of leaving has nothing to do with the pt staffs or manager.
all them are absolute LOVES in one way or another.
they have been there thru thick and thin fer me.
i havent tell mas yet. i think shes gona be like. "NO YOU CANT LEAVE."
and heidi was already long face when i told her i want to leave by end of june.
im still yet to tel jeslyn.haix.
shes gona brainwash my mind not to leave.
is tough la,i really dun wan to leave.
bud how do u expect me to work when OT almost everidae.
i know the rest of the managers are also tireed.
bud is really killing seh at this rate.
slogging my ass off juz fer the company.wtf.
and if the pay is fcking damn high than nvm la.

to sis: i know u muz be surprised about dis.
believe me,i dun wan to leave so soon also.
bud at this rate i will be like skeleton working like dis u knw?
call me if u wana talk about it aites.
love u heaps okays? (:

vina(:
<3>

IM SO WORNED OUT.
I DUNNOE HOW LONG MORE I CAN TAKE DIS.

im giving myself till the trip.
bud if i really cant.i will take my leave.
my back and legs is aching twice as much as before.
the stress and tiredness is way worser than before.
i feel like juz break down u knw? i dunnoe why.
next week im OT-ing everyday.6days in a row.
thanks for nothing,even when in on morning shifts.
my lifestyle is more deprived than before.
go home,bathe,sleep.
thats it. i can hardly find time to go online anymore.
dun even say about going out.
now is close to 8:30pm.
im going off to bed.
bye people.

i need u to make my day.
im juz missing u so badly.
and nothing is helping to ease the pain away.

vina:(

the stress is coming onto me already.
this week im morning shifts bud dun feel like it u knw.
morning shifts means 9-5pm.
bud how cum i never go bak on the dot at 5? okay maybe latest at 6pm?
i have been OT-ing almost everidae now.
and juz now finish at 5pm also still have to do the piles of invoices fer the past few days.
and i have to worry about the cakes selling,
cause i did the purchasing order for tmr coming in and todaes cakes.muz like SELL.
if not tmr.die,no place fer the cakes cuming in tmr.
bud when i was staying bak to do my work,i saw customers keep buying cakes like non-stop.
and i was like "please sell more! :("
and next week roster already out!
woo-hoo! im morning shifts again people.
and Labour day im doing opening!! HHAHAHAS. yes!
first time public holiday im doing opening la seh. *shake the booty* (:

aniwaes,i do not know whether suddenely sumone knock sum sense into her
or either she feels guilty or the fact that shes leaving by end of april,
she has finaly talk to me as per normal.
and she was frigging sad when she told me she was leaving.
haix,u know..all this while no matter how much i got angry at her
or the fact she hated me fer talking to min,i had never like had the urge to mcm dendam hati gitu.
so i was a bit bummed out when i heard shes gona leave soon urh.
and i bluntly told her "U break the promise ehs".
and she was like "is not dat i want to break,bud i dun have a choice u noe...."
i knew dat.*sighs
so wads the promise about?
last year,she wanted to leave already.
bud den i told her,to juz stay until her contract finish which is end of dis year.
like in a way accompany me than i will also be here till end of year.
than plus her other issues,she decided to stay.
so now she has come to a point which she cant decide.so yeah.
mcm dah fated in a way fer her to return.so juz counting down the days i presume.

eventhou work has been a bit tedious.
im juz so glad that i decided to stay on fer awhile.
my new manager cecilia is like so so LOVES can? (:
shes so calm and relax and joke around bud work like top notch.i loves.
she will always find ways to make me smile once she see my cramp face.
and weirdly,i havent been scolding n mood swings around as much as ive been past few months.
i do not know if its the new change or wad.
bud i feel much happier in way. i swear.
my kitchen family has always been like my inspiration,hahhas.
every single day they will make me SMILE.(:
thoughts of dem everyday reminds me of my london guy.
and hell yeah,im missing him like heaps.
this few days having those memories flowing bak to me all of a sudden.
have this urge to msg him,bud maybe not now.
whheree are yoouu.like really. ):

*my request brochure frm this hotel sch came in todae.
might consider dere. hees (:
wana keep my options open.

i love my sisters.cuzzins.frens.
ure all that keeps me going.
<3 london (:

vina(:

too many memories.*sighs

todae a new HIP Trainee joined the ctp crew.
and shes juz like me.
have to go thru the slavery hours of cheap labour lurh.
kinda pity a bit when i first saw her.
bud i decided to let her have a gd time this one year.
when i first came in,be honest..no one was dat nice to me or friendly.
have bitchy colleague and an idiot supervisor la seh.
so cold to me fer about 1-2months. imagine la!

so when i saw Kim the new trainee..i was like all smiles.
as in a sincere way.
doesnt mean i went thru torture,she also has to go thru dat.
i wana be a gd supervisor and leader especially to the new staffs.
is hard bud im trying my best.
hopefully everything will go smoothly,insya-Allah.

*and get well soon Min (:
u really scared me when u injured ur finger soo bad.
sighs.

vina(:

this entry goes to my dearest cuzzin.

IM SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SORRY
fer forgetting to wish u yesterday.
i really thought its dis cuming tuesday.
ohkay my bad really.
i will make it up to u ohkay? =)


HAPPY
22nd
BELATED
BURFDAE
MY DEAR
CUZZY-HAFIZ =)

ure so big-big now! hehs x)
hope u have a great day and
may Allah bless u always. smiles =)

vina(:

seriously i didnt know dat i will look so gd wearing that red shirt ;p
hahahhas.
i came work and everione was like "wah amalina,supervisor eh now. congrats!"
and i was like 'erhhs..blushing in a way la kind of reaction.
bud i was trembling when i stepped out onto the floor!
fadliana and fatima was juz giving me the smiles dat kind. made me more uncomfortable.
than sumore i never wear my apron and no more high sport shoes!
it was so so so friggging weird can?! haix.
bud awhile later after i go fer break all..than wasnt so bad arh.
and some of them even said that i really look good wearing the red shirt =D
i didnt managed to take a pic cause as usual rushing to go work.
so maybe tuesday i take okay?
and huge thanks to those who gave me the encouragement!
i have to believe in myself that i can do this (:

*a year has passed.bud im hoping that u will come bak one day.
so many memories still being left behind.
and everidae it is still playing in my mind.
thou it seems like u really didnt leave completely.imy*

vina(:

todae has like concluded my last OFF day on a saturday before more to come!
and seriously,wads more better than to spend it with an old bestfren of mine and spending quality time wif myself? its like a perfect combination to be honest.

i left the house during afternoon and was on my way to plaza sing.
halfway thru,syafika[my pri sch bestfren] txted me if i wana meet her.
and i knew she muz have fought wif her guy.so yeah why not.
so i decided to meet her only later a bit after i done my hair.
and i was practically standing outside of the kimage prestige studio fer 10 mins.
cause i had a hard time deciding whether i shuld be doing my hair or not.
than when i entered,all was fully booked.
so i decided to come bak later in the evening and meet syafika first.
and to be honest,when i saw her after 6 darn years,she didnt change a bit!
she was still short and yes a bit in her minah ways also.
bud my respect goes to her one notch higher,cause she proves shes otherwise.
im juz so glad that she has kept her senses to study hard and do well in ITE.
aniwaes,we walked around marina square finding fer my black jeans.
it was so so so hard. cause either dun have my size,or too long,or too huge,or no black.
i went from zara to mango to topshop/topman to river island and to all those branded shops u can try to name me la and it was so out of my range.ptffs.expected in a way.
than i dunnoe why,me and her we juz decided to walk into one of this shop.[miss selfridge]
looking at the price,yes is branded enuf ohkay. and is a place known at UK.
i think the shop is only available at marina square,bud maybe there are other places.
and i was juz about to give up looking at the prices,
than syafika pull out this jeans which made me like "COULD THIS BE THE ONE?"
i tried it on,and it was like YAY fer me! (:
prices will be listed below ohkay.(:
after all that,we parted ways.
she went and meet her guy while i went bak to kimage at plaza.

my hairstylist was ricky.
the difference btw the normal kimage outlets and kimage prestige are the hairstylists.
i dun mind paying a bit more juz for a haircut cause i know i will look and feel good.
at kimage prestige they have either leading or master stylist.
ricky is a leading hairstylist. and i have to say he is goood-goood! (:
usually when i went to supercuts to thin my hair,
it was like they will only thin and layer a bit.
bud sumhow ricky read my mind and he said "I will thin ur hair a lot-alot. REally a lot arh."
and i was like wow,okay,be my guest!!
at first i didnt realise how much he has thined my hair,until he show me.
OH GOD. it was like so so so much!
and i was so so so happy.
cause eversince after the break-up i told myself i will chop off all this damn hair.
bud i held bak until todae.
and yes,i do feel good and my head feels lighter!
im so glad that i had my hair done at kimage.
after cutting my hair,i went to john little.
i got myself the maybeline angelfit foundation.

hahhas and now to reveal the prices.
BLACK JEANS-$78
KIMAGE-$45
FOUNDATION-$28

ahhh total that up ur ownself ohkays.lols.
and my mum made noise when she knew how much i spend juz fer a haircut!
any case,i txted yonhchun juz now.
awww! and he said he also miss all of us bak st swensens.
he will come bak in may to visit us!
U BETTER! hahhas.

till tmr a new chapter.
oh god im nervous la.
bye loved ones (:

vina(:

eventhou im like drowsy and tired from todaes shift.
my dear loved ones,im glad to say IVE GRADUATED FROM SWENSENS! *as a cheap labour staff =/
*ohkay a bit exaggerating larh.bud is true ohkay.
bud is amazing how i survived one year of long killing,working hours n to top dat,
missing impt functions like hari-raya and spending time wif my other frens n cuzzins plus family.
one year ago,18 april 2007,i was at the HQ,signing the damn contract agreeing to one year at swensens.
any point of time we leave the place,we have to pay bak the company.
my first 3months[april-july] was veri sweet bud yet bittter.
i fell in love wif my london guy[hehs] and yet rivalry with yana and min.
the next 3months[july-sept],was veri tedious fer me.
cause i broke up wif my first ex and went thru a rough patch.
it was pure hell-ness! I SWEAR!
the next following 3months[sept-dec] was a huge depression fer me,
cause my london guy resigned and flew off to london to work.
working hours seemed like slavery knowing the fact he is not dere animore.
and the last 3 months [jan-april] was,more overtime and overtime.
especially chinese new year period. that is like so so so frigging killing!
and not forgetting my sis also flew off :(
BUD
despite all that, im veri thankful to have such lovely colleagues by my side.
they guided me thru my one year,thou all of dem are part-timers.
without them,really i wuld have quit long time back.
hahas,and of course..to min..who will be working side-by-side wif me now.
thou the situation is different now,i will juz have to push myself harder.
not forgetting my managers,they are LOVES (:
oh and of course! like my second family..the kitchen crew! (:
they are simply the BEST of a kind(: (:

hoho,and to think that i shuld be happy ehs,cause is over?
well partly due to the fact that im cheap labour,well yes im glad thats over.
bud is time to wake up to the fact and reality...
BYE WHITE SHIRT.BYE BLUE JEANS.BYE STINKY APRON.BYE SMELLY SPORT SHOE.BYE OVERSIZED BAG.
my story as a part-time staff from funan to full-time trainee staff at chinatown ENDS HERE.

annnnddd.........



HELLO RED SHIRT!
HELLO BLACK PANTS.
HELLO BLACK SHOES.
HELLO BLACK BAG.
HELLO NEW HAIRDO.
ouh
HELLO TO MORE TASKS N RESPONSIBILITY (:

my new position as a supervisor will start this sunday.
to be honest,my stomache is like butterflies like TOOT.
i do not know how my other colleagues are going to see me.bud yeah.
ive to try my best on my new chapter now.
ive to work extra hard cause now ive more responsibilities,
which ive been training dem from 3mnths bak.
bud really,im still not good at it yet,especially the ORDERING!
it will always be undershot and not overshot.zzz.
im trying to perfect my area in ordering.argh.
than followed by cake ordering which im yet to learn.
and theres still OST course and fountain training which im yet to go la.
is like kinda scary bud exciting at the same time!
i know,there are a few who really objects me from continuing here cause due to reasons.
i know the fact working under sumone is veri stressful and tedious.
bud at least,i know my grounds and i know how she works.
it is really going to be more challenging,bud hey..now im not bonded by the company ryte?
im working also juz to pass time until i turn 18 and to gain some management skills.
if any point of time,i feel dat maybe ive enuf of dere,i will take my leave.
and i can try to apply fer positions in hotels.
the most im giving myself is until end of this year.
yes,dat means,i think i have to forgo hari raya this year again! :(
insya-allah,my cuzzys wedding in june im able to make it!
my trip to tassie has been confirmed.so no changes in dat.(:
likewise,spending time wif my cuzzins and other frens and family,will be veri rare.
sadistic,bud yea..i only have one off day to rest,mind you.
depends on the shifts i get also.
so advanced sorry to my loved ones,if this year im missing out on occasions again.
if really dere is a need to meet and catch up,do tell me a week earlier? (:
than we can try plan out something.hopefully.
i do hope that i have everiones support in this of me continuing my job.
i have a long-long way to go.
and im still trying to keep it strong of wanting to go to HTMI and do my degree.
persevrance.hardwork.determination.
i guess dat shall be all fer my concluded one year as a staff at swensens chinatown point.
till my new chapter and maybe countdown again starts on 20 april 2008.

*and we saw yong chun inside the TODAY paper.
pictures of events at ZOUK.
and he was behind the bar pouring some drinks.
and yes,all of US MISS HIM A LOT!
i wana txted him tomorrow (:
and we plan to visit him sometime later.

*and didi[mahdi] please takecare of urself.
that rashes or bed bug bites is like SO SCARY!
cant wait to see u on sunday! (:

*cuzzy nisa: hahahs yes, u are defeniteley being loved all the time!
so u dunch have to worry about dat (:
and ur bro's gift is a killer! *sighs
wad am i to do *sighs
ahahhas,worst cum to worst,i will have to get dat =p

*sis: ive read the doa. thanks a lot (:
made me feel more assured and calming in a way.
and i like sen u the e-card twice!
cant be the worng email add ryte? do check again kies.
and i love u too! (:

bud i cant help to end todaes entry with this.

I MISS MY SIS.
I MISS MY LONDON GUY.
I MISS MY CUZZY at SYRIA.
I MISS MY CUZZY at ORLANDO.
I MISS MY FREN-SOFIA at SWITZERLAND.
I MISS MY CUZZINS TOO!!
I MISS MY BESTIES-ARIFAH n HAZIQA!

whereever and whatever u do in life ryte now,
i hope all of u are doing good and great.
even if life stinks,do remember to SMILE =D
cause a SMILE can do wonders to ur LIFE. (:

till then.
extra love,

VINA(:

oouuh.finally im sick-sick!
great. tomorrow is my last day of attachment.
and here i am sick!
horrible.
i couldnt speak or strain my voice.
so i was taking orders like some mute person.sighs.
after lunch crowd,i left and took the medical chit to go to raffles clinic.
and the doctor gave me like so so so much medicine!
and my mc is only for todae la.damn.
tmr 11-9.zzz.see can go bak early a not arh.

anycase,my mum picked me up frm compass.
hahhas. and there was this one feminine sale by metro.
all the ladies stuffs. frm shoes to bags and to make-up!
SIS,u shuld have seen it.
i swear if u were wif me,u wuld have made me tried at least 3-4 diff pairs of shoes.hehs.
and i managed to made my mum get fer me a new bag.
lols.i want to look good on sunday u knw (:

okay.so time fer me to eat my med and go slp.
byes people (:
ure always being loved (:

vina(:

3 more days b4 a new life fer me.
i dunnoe how this is going. im worried.
i hope is not a mistake.

and it was kinda shocking when i heard afiq cried on e phne juz now.
i swear i didnt expect that.
he was like at first okay. than all of a sudden he was caught in tears.
his dad condition became unstable all of a sudden.
and i was like. if anything juz msg me.
and alhamdullilah,his dad condition is better now.
i think,he culd actually come expect to the worst situation already.
bud i knw his dad is fighting strongly.
i told him in one of the messages that im here for him.
and i will stick by that. you have my word afiq (:
if anything goes wrong,my phone will always be beside me.
please dun cry like that animore. haix,i juz culdnt explain the feeling la.
i hope to see u tmr at work...

aniwaes,screw his close fren din fer telling me that afiq likes me.
shit.idiot la. u like haziqa ur problem la.
no need to drag me and afiq to the picture ryte?
afiq was away. t
han he went and say."u like afiq ehs?"
i was like "huh?'
"u like afiq?"
i frowned and said "no."
than he went "u sure?" and i was caught off guard a bit.
and i was like"no la".
than he said "afiq told me he like u,u knw?"
by than inside me was like boiling. i hate it when people say like that.
and i juz shut him up by saying " can u dun anyhow say?" in a pissed off voice.
wth is wrong wif him,his fren fer gods sake.
i almost wanted to say,he has marini already.why wuld he want to like me.
shit,screw me again wif ur nonsense and i will make sure haziqa is out of ur league.
and besides i dun approve of her going wif him.so dream on fella.
whatever. im tired of hearing all these lies. wads ur motive?

and really heidi need to get a life.
feeding each other in the broad daylight. *eurgh
ure so lucky i didnt scream it off at ur face juz now la.
and why do i have to be one who is suppose to be understanding??
shuldnt ur gurlfren be the one instead? dammit.

why is this getting harder?
haiz..cuzzy,i wana go to disneyland and live dere.
i wana forget about the fcking problems back here.
is even hard to smile these days. sighs*
sis,bring 29june like fast! i dun know hw long i can take dis animore.

vina(:

ouh heloo people.
im not looking forward to next week?
okay maybe i am. till friday?
dats cause my attachment will be over.
bud on sunday? urmmms. arhh.im still 50-50 gitu.
bud the next week roster. my name is under muhaimin already.
as in im categorised under the superviors already.... =(
i know change is good.
bud i dunnoe how this change will serve me well.
maybe im not adjusting to the fact yet?

YOU WILL BE FINE AMALINA.sheesh.get a life.

sis,sis,sis,sis,sis.
im missing you like...dunnoe wad to say.
haix,if only ure like next door.
than i can rant to u about this everyday.
and ure gona bla bla bla at me.
bud sumhow i will feeel better.
make me feel twice as better please.............
it will be good if u can call me on saturday night? =)
than inspire and motivate me a bit? =D
ur message really helps.i appreciate.
bud i wana hear ur voice la. cheh.mcm dah jiwang ke per.hehs.
missshhh yoouuu!

vina(:

IM TERRIBLY

IN LOVE

WITH

DANIEL HENNEY!!!!!!!









im like oh my god can??!
okay maybe i terlambat find out about him la. bud still?!
and yes this is what i do during my off day.
first i watch 200 pounds beauty.
followed by seducing mr.perfect which stars daniel.
and for a lighter note to those who are finding fer me suitors.
i want somewhat like how he is! and no less than that.
american-korean,how frigging awesome can dat get?!
can really melt ah seh..............
byes (:

vina(: (: (:

this week is passing by extremley-extremley slow. why ehs?
trying to fill my mind with more dreadful thoughts and such.sighs.
ouh and todae,actually dat heidi dun wan to talk to me la.
than after that i like cant be bothered,juz talk to her when necessary.
she like reluctant to talk,than a bit-bit than talk.spare me.
TALK TO MY HAND!~

so is like 7 more days till friday my last day as white shirt,most prob.
im like on the verge of 50-50 u knw?
mcm like...okay i shuld be enjoying whatever is left as a staff.
bud i cant help thinking how my other same level colleagues will see me.
i mean most of dem know of my upcoming promotion.
bud none of dem know is like next week can?!
im also like not mentally and physically prepared la seh.
thou i know..i hope i will be okay.
shit,im like counting down to my last day and a new day.
LIKE THANKS FER NOTHING EHS!~

CUZZY SANA:
hahhas.and i juz webcam wif my cuzzy who is like 10,000 miles away!
awww. u really look so tired and defeniteley purely HOMESICK!
be strong okay cuz? less of u noe wad and more SMILES.
u will be okay in time to come.after all is 6months (:
lols.and i took a few snapshots of u eating the maggie mee! ahahahs. x)
eeps. and u were really making me jealous when u got a chance to play at disneyland ytd.
im like.argh!! when is my turn going to come?
hahhas,kirim salam fer me to MICKEY MOUSE ohkays?
have fun and work hard =)
i webcam wif u some other time soon. do take cares.
have fun at the training! =D
xoxo,vina (:
ure being missed and lurvvvveeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

HaPpy Birthday to U!
HappY Birthday to U!
HappY 18th Birthday to my dearest BESTIE,ARIFAH!
HaPPy BirThdAY to U!!!!
sighs* ure always wif ur books and such.
do take a break once in awhile okay?
i will always lurve u! and im also always here for u.
another depression on those marks,
u know u can always beep me kay?
lets go out sometime again wif dat selenger haziqa~ (:


i better dedicate personal mesagges on this entry.

CUZZY HAFIZ:
WOI. no shame arh ask fer ur wishlist?!
wad the toot!! think im sum millionare isit buy fer u ur diving stuffs.sheesh.
helo..can dun ketok me so hard can a not?
budget 50 la. please,pity me can.
and ehs..u still owe me my treat! wad the hack.
no treat,NO PRESENT. thats my final deal! =x * BLUEKS!!

SIS:
hahhas,nice to receive 9 long messages from u ehs.
bout heidi,biar kan la dier. i will juz act normally.
shit,i dun lose anything la. and think like as if min is sum hollywood actor. aper jer.
im trying to work thinghs out fer my upcoming work.
hopefully insya-Allah everything will go smoothly.
and im missing u more and more =(
all my previous plan now all have to be change again.sighs.
bud i know one thing that wont change,
JUNE 29. 7:15pm flight to Melbourne than to TASMANIA!
wait fer me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*ouh and fer my own personal note.
i juz love serving long huge groups.
can really learn a lot.
and one of the customer juz now,reminds of my sec sch crush.*sighs so shuai.
okay.dats enuf.
vina loves her sisters and her cuzzins and her besties and her wrkmates! (: (: (:

vina(:

this few days have been extremley crazy and tiring.
i dunnoe where i shuld start off from.
okay hmmm,.....

cuzzy sana! gd to know uve reached dere safely.
arhh,homesick already ehs?
muz take care of urself okay. we are like 10,000miles++ away from u..
ahh do eat ur medicine if u have and plenty of rest!
email me ur number okays? =) lurve u with cherry on top!

wait..i cant take it animore.
im sorry,bud i juz have to blast it out.
my head is spinning so so so badly it hurts.
WHAT THE HELL IS UR FRIGGING PROBLEM?!
ur own colleague and staff -and u see me in such a way?
stop having childish thinking that im going to snatch ur guy away frm u.
he is my supervisor and a fren and dats all.
and fer gods sake,he was helping me with my work la.
all the while he laugh and joke wif me,u didnt give me attotude.
u even confide to me about ur problems wif him.
than all of a sudden u became angry and u didnt want to talk to me?!
shit la,call urself a manager. professional a bit can a not?
work is work la seh. u have a problem wif me,u talk it out la.
give me black face fer wad.
i juz dun believe u can turn on to me until that extent.realy no comments.
huge sorry to shahirah and afiq fer becoming my punching bag juz now.
you guys are the best okay? (:

since thats done,and ive apologised to afiq and shahirah personally.
ouh yes-yes.
ytd i watched the most amazing n romantic movie of all.
thou is like late already. the leap years.
ahh..didnt know why i never watched it earlier.
yes,and i watched it wif afiq (:
ah seh..i was like tears watching the movie.
it is so frigging touching to the max punyer!!
i so wana buy the disc once it is being released.
and afiq treat me to "heavens" fried mars. drooling.
sis,take a gd look at the picture.
once ure bal in dec..i will bring u go indulge.
and hahahs! AFIQ IS NOT HALAL-HALAL!!
he juz wont admit it.tsk-tsk.naughty boy.
and if people are wondering if deres anything going on btw me and him.
is a NO. we enjoy each others company and sillyness plus laughter.
and we both love to tell each other about our love stories.
yea..and i guess the line has been drawn to frens. (:
im glad i went out with him to watch the movie and had our late supper cum love talk.

lastly.my upcoming promotion as a supervisor.
phuyo.banyak headache to the max!
oh god.i hope im not making the wrong decsion.
i need everiones support in this.
and i wish my parents were more positive a bit.
thou i know they only want the best fer me.
bud cant u see how hard im trying? haix. sighs*
i jux hope i dun come to the point of breakdown and i dunnoe wad.......

to sis: like where are u when i need u?
having heache wif like dunnoe wad also.
hope thinghs are gd for u.
i can only look forward to ur trip,
i dunnoe whether i shuld even be looking forward becuming a supervisor like SOON.
the soon is right after my attachment ):
i mean i dun mind arhh...bud i dunnoe if im up for it.
like im good enuf gitu? any advices? cause im in need for one badly.
if u have spare time..call me or text me okay?
im MISSING YOU LIKE HEAPS AND HEAPS AND HEAPS AND HEAPS!!!!!!!!!!

adlinas doodles (:



the heavenly fried mars thanks to afiq(:



vina(:

where do i begin.
of course my cuzzy departure.
on friday night i came home around 12 plus.
than i slept till 4am.
we picked abg wan up and arrive at the airport around 5:15am.
haha! and my cuzzy was veri shocked to see us.
she didnt expect us to turn up.yeps-yeps.
we did took some final moments with her.
the part when she was going to go in..
ah lah seh...tears ran down everiones faces.
6am in the morning wad do u think?
i cried..bud culdnt really so much cause my eyes was veri tired.
hopefully by now she wuld have reached at US already.
juz waiting fer the dinsney crew to pick dem up 6am their time on 7th of april.
i know u are going to have lots of fun!
lookking forward to see u back on the 3rd day of hari raya!!

veri heart pain see one by one go.
first it was my london guy at terminal 1.[location-london]
than cuzzy hida at terminal 1 also.[location-syria]
than is sofia at terminal 3[location-switzerland]
followed by my sis at terminal 1[location-tasmania]
last bud not the least my cuzzy sana at terminal 3[location-US,orlando]

and all the distance are like so frigging far!!!!!
ahh shit. when are all of u cuming bak???????????????????????
i misss every single one of u to pieces! *sighs


anyways,im not felling gd lately.
having sorethroat and feel so tired lately.
not having enuf sleep and rest.

to sis: hahas,dah gain weight ke per? abeh suker?
aper jer..eh hellos..im 35 okay? and im in singapore!
at the rate i see ur photos at photobucket indulging the pizzas,
whu cannot gain weight till 36?? aper dah!
wah wah,sekarang mcm ader maser jer nak blog in.
not bad-not bad. dah UP sikit eh sis?
u shuld be looking forward to my grand arrival in june,hehs.
ouh and do take care and wear ur jacket often.
jangan aysik nak keluar ajer mlm-mlm.
later u fall sick how? hmmm.
anything else,beep me okays?
yups..talk to u some time soon sis! lurvvee u!

12 days till is all over!!!!!!!!!!!

vina(:

earthlings.in less than 13 days time, i will be screaming fer joy.
im juz enduring whatever days left there is on my attachment.
as my attachment is ending,more OTS and work given to me.
im juz tired of fountain and fountain. i wana take a break.

finally afiq is being trained fountain now.
and im trying my best to keep my temper at him.
shit,and i think im making things more worse wif him.
over the ice-cream matter thinghy.
he told to fatima that he like kecik hati and guilty and dunnoe why i have to react in such a way.
okay la,fine my fault. i was juz exaggerating on the matter too much.
i also like malas wana layan him as in social life.
of course work is work.
bud i think besides dat..forget it. im tired and lazy already.
my another mistake to get close to him also.
so is like bye afiq. ive got a life to live.
find sumone else who can be so dat concern towards u.
and besides,he got sumone else to love kan.
okay ENUF! BYEEEEE AFFFFFIIIIIIQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQ.

im dreading to type this bud less in 7hrs time,
my cuzzy is flying off. ahh seh.
i have to wake up at 4am to pick abg wan than go to airport.
okay.i juz hope i wont bawl over dere and make a fool of myself.
cuzzy. you have my best wishes!
BE THE MOST HAPPENING CAST MEMBER of disney there is! hehehs.
ouh and please dun forget my extra large huggable mickey mouse when u come bak!
and and do give us a buzz once uve landed safely.
great,everione is or has already flown off.
whuse on the list next arh??!?!
can stay in singapore diam-diam a not,fer gods sake??

to sis: wait arh the picture. my comp having problem a bit.
later tmr b4 i head off to work i shall upload.hopefully =/
err..hehs..yea dat london guy la.
aiya better than having headache about dat stupid afiq guy.u knw,u knw.
anyways...hahhas..ur dearest cuzzy is interested in fazal.wahahahs.
so maybe once shes bak frm US u can try something-something =D
ah lah sis,im missing u like crap la seh.
juz wish time can fly faster.
study hard okay? i know u are (:
dun over-stress.i dun wan to see u having grey hair when im dere. =/
be good. and i will try to send some stuffs over by end of this month,
to help u de-stress and keep warm.
lurvvvvveeeeeee yyyyyoooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. xoxoxo =D

vina(:

sheesh.afiq is such a sotong todae on his first day at fountain.
and i was guiding him all the way.
than mas keep telling me dis,"you better dun scold him ehs! im telling you."
so everytime he makes my blood boil,i have to count to and breathe deeply.
god,lucky i didnt lose my temper so dat badly.
and and and =(
is like afiq saw my wallpaper of me and london guy.
than he was like asking fatima "ehs,amalina is attached arh?"
than fatima was like "erhh..no la".
now im like..okay..since i dun wan to like him,than i shouldnt bother ryte?
after all he also has his own loving life wif dat aussie gurl.so yeah.

anyhoos.
my dearest sister i better update u bout the younger one.
well it seems that shes starting her little mischeif again.
she bought fer Lin something from the bookshop and mum was like ROOFTOP.
and she starting to scribble on papers..I Love you irfan.lols.
below is the picture of it. and her work has not been up to standard arh.
seriously...if only my off day on weekday than i can check her work.
if not i hardly have time fer her also la seh. so im feeling kinda bad.
bud i hope u can like call her up soon to encourage her to be tip-top in her sch performance.
i juz cant stand when mum makes so much noise at home about this.
so yeah..call soon okay sis? im also missing u like crap.
i juz wish june will come faster.i cant wait to immerse myself with the nature and u =(

so many things to be done.
bud i juz cant find the time.damn.
juz now felt like doing my wine assignment.
bud i blog in only,than my head gets heavy and eyes sleepy.shit!
ahhhhhh. bang-bang!

london-london-london,im juz missing you so so so so much!
ahhh,if only i can have the liberty to fly dere.that would be like AWESOME! bud..haix.
time will tell once again.

miley(:

so what has been happening in my life?


i missed a VERY IMPORTANT CALL on monday.
my london tried to call me,bud i was juz too slow to pick up the phone.
haix,than he didnt call bak la.
i was like so frigging down can.argh.bud is okay.
i plan to call him some time later.


todae my cuzzy sana came over to scan and print some of her documents.
okay..she is like flying off this saturday! *ouh god.
morning flight sumore. so im not sure i wan to go dere staright or go hm first arh.
any case,im gona miss her truckloads!
hari raya short of 2 already.bummer =(
we left my house same time.
she went to orchard while i went to funan.

i met arifah first than we made our way to IT mall.
we wanted to see haziqa after such a long time!
it was so so so nice to see her.fer real.
i gossiped wif arifah first,than we talk awhile to haziqa.
to the both of my bestie: no matter wad happens, both of you will always be mine!
no one can replace or change that fact.
haziqa,ure always wif ur complicating love problems and arifah,ure always wif the books.
bud deep down ure always juz so so so LOVABLE! the both of u =)
lets meet up again some time kay? MISS YOU BOTH!!!!!!!!!!




afiq,afiq,afiq-ure such a mystery to my life.
how i wish thinghs were juz simple for us!
but it will never be.

and importantly to my sister:
sis,no matter how tough life goes.
you know im always here for u kays.
seriously if i can bring my butt over to dere now, I SWEAR I WILL.
im missing you like crap.
so many happenings bud everidae cum home, no one to talk to.
ah lah sedih seh everynite talk to the wall.
and i wont chg my link animore =)
be good.no more tears understand?
is already april! 2 more months and i will be dere.
SMILE FER ME KAY SIS? (:
muaccks.hugs*



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