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No rants for you peeps.

you are the reason to why i know there cant be a second person.
my dearest london,txted me around 11plus. on my way to work.
i was soo tired due to chatted wif afiq till 5am in the morning.sighs.
i was like so startled when i saw london msg me!
and his veri first msg,really maked me SMILE and so so awake.
we txted a few times,till i started work.
yes and i miss you too like how u miss me also (:
if i can find the time,one day i will call you dearest.i promise.
the problem is my phone theres no auto-roaming thinghy.a bit difficult lurh.

after the misunderstanding and arguments wif afiq.
it has finally been settled.
i felt bad,so i bought fer him the chocolate.
and yes he was veri-veri surprised.(:
i guess no point wanting to chase and prove to sumone that ure worth fer them.
so i juz decide be happy fer whatever dere is.
he is a veri nice companion as a fren.really.
and he never made me stop smiling on top of the smile that i have been carrying.
as promised im going to bring u to eat the dinner buffet at the carousel.
since that day ive been thinking of bringing sumone special.
bud i think wait fer dat person to arrive,is so damn long.
so i decided to bring afiq whu appreciates food a lot (: and is my treat okay.
and ytd chat wif him till 5am was really nice (:
thou i have difficulty waking up,going to work.ahahahs.

im juz too tired now.

im missing u and loving u.

miley(:

im sitting comfotably in my chair after an interesting day.
as usual how can i ever be on time to meet people?
so i arrived at outlet around 4:20pm.
and both of them [afiq n huda] were sipping tea.great.
we hanged around at oulet fer another 10 mins,than we head off to VIVO(:
since afiq was unwell,we decided to eat banquet.
had a hard time deciding wad to eat la seh.
so i had [chicken rice]
huda ate [chicken noodle]
afiq ate [lemon chicken rice]
and we slacked dere till 6:30pm.
in btw,he really make me pissed off la seh!
he forgot most of my answers to HIS OWN QUESTIONS!
i was like so ticked off than i remain cool again.
but seriously he has a very-very bad memory.haix.

aniwaes,we watched orphanage.
me and afiq was like shivering cause we didnt brought along our jackets.
the story was really good!! except the ending a bit.
believe me i was really freaked out so many times that,
afiq nudged me using his arm and keep asking me whether i was okay a not.
and mind you it wasnt once BUD several times.haix.
ouh and the ticket he payed fer me. he told me it was a treat.bleahs.
okay fine his being a nice gentleman. so wad?

bud really i still hate him fer forgetting wad we talked over!
than he txted me saying "Im reali sory"
and then now im appearing offline in msn.
and his personal message put "hey,im realy veri sorry"
yah thanks arh afiq.
eventhou watching movie wif u is fun,
i tink ure juz like the same.disappointing.

is hopeless la to like him.
he cant forget her thou he is finding fer the perfect one.
haix,fatima is going to kill me when i tell her this.
im giving up OKAY? im juz too tired trying to win him.
argh.is not bleady easy.
whatever.
bud i still do wan the aeroplane to come true! =(
u wuld never understand afiq.

vina(:

ouh how did i forget this part.
and yes ive sort of promised afiq to take him on a plane.
he has never taken one b4 (:
like you said afiq or more of u were threatening me in way.
"we are going to seat in the plane tgt.so you better be nice to me"
"you are so hard to please amalina"

yes afiq,im so hard to please. i wont deny any of dat.
and yes,i will try and do whatever it takes to make seating in the plane tgt to cum true(:
be it years,okay maybe 2 years? after all u will still not be doing ur NS yet (:

vina(:

OMG! i swear i was at the verge of tears when i saw this special bestie of mine!

dis is how the fated-friendship goes.
i juz had a urged to go to compass point todae after msging haziqa.
than randomly i told haziqa,"shall we bring arifah along?"
it has been a long time since the 3 of us go out together.
so moments after that i msged arifah.
and she was having a bad day due to her results all.
so was texting her to cheer up and stuffs like dat.
believe me,i was aimlessly walking around compass point by than.
i swear i dunnoe where i was walking to.
than all of a sudden arifah txted me "im at cp.dun forget to msg me".
and i was like "WAD?!,wait im at cp also".
and i immediately called her to come bak and meet me.
this is where the first sentence at the top comes in.
and i shall say it again cause u have no idea how much I MISS HER and I MEAN IT.

OMG! i swear i was at the verge of tears when i saw this special bestie of mine!
i wanted to hug her to pieces.
bud she was carrying a cnc m/s frm gailee and this 1100 words book thinghy.
and i juz laughed at the spot.
we were so excited seeing each other.
we sat at mcdonalds and talk thinghs out.
bud wad shocked me most was,she had this feeling wanting to either msg me or haziqa~
and juz so happen,i msged her first!
i mean like.i juz dunnoe how to say animore.

to arifah:
i said to u juz now and i shall say again and again!
you havent change a single bit from head to toe!
still crying over tests which u didnt do well, to cannot go home so late later ur mother scold to having to go home and eat and cannot eat outside. (:
bud u know wad, thats what MAKES YOU-SPECIALLY YOU! (:
6 years of friendship with you and haziqa is juz amazing.
i juz miss you and lurve u so much. i wont deny any single bit.
when we go out together next week i wan to take a shot of the 3 of us.
and i wan to frame it up on my wall.
and believe me if i have to, i will make the both of u do it also.
please dun hesitate to msg me any point of time okay?
im always here for u.
and do cheer up fer ur tests (:
giving up is not in ur volcabulary.dats one thing fer sure.
smiles =)


going bak we met cikgu faeezah inside the bus.
she told me that i look so so happy now =)
like ive finally found the life which im suppose to lead and go for.
shes such a sweet and caring teacher.
thou i wasnt so close to her,she remembered my studies very well.
thank you for that short inspirational words cikgu. (:

i had a gd long 2-3hrs chat wif afiq ytd.
he told me he was single but taken.
i was like mcm sad a bit.
bud after that it doesnt matter to me animore.
cause he eventually told me he was finding fer the perfect one yet.
and there are still many thinghs he need to know about her.
not saying dat i have a chance la. bud i will take it slow.
and eventually we came to this half an hour Q&A session! lols.
i gave him dat time to ask me anything there is and i will answer honestly.
lols. you shuld have seen the questions.
until he cant think of any and ask me "have you eaten?"
ahahahahs. he was also like paisei and stumped in a way.
bud he noticed something about me towards him.
i was being veri secretive. i wont tel him anything or answer him anything.
and keep telling that being nice isnt my forte.AAHAHS. wad the crap arh seh.
bud really at work u dun see me being nice unless something happens.mean ehs?
ouh and to add all that. he msged me at 6pm plus todae again.
telling me he had bought the tickets fer tmr show.
and i was like 'okay!great.i cant wait (:'
and he replied me saying...'if ure excited than im also excited too =)'
and i was like oh god.smiling and laughing.
wah malu la seh.dammit. people were staring at me can? shhessh.

ouh bud i wont deny,
ARIFAH,
AFIQ,
CIKGU FAEEZAH,

you guys made my DAY TODAE! =D
be it by msg or fated to see you guys.
i never felt so alive again in a way (:

Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to my dearest sister baby a'dlina!~
Happy Birthday to you (:

my naughty little adorobale younger sister turned 7 todae.
my parents brought her to toy'u'rus to choose her presents.
woah and is really a lot!
i felt bad cuz i didnt really choose a present fer her.
so during lunch,i gulped down my food and bought fer her 2 computer games.
one was scoobydoo and the other is chicken little(: about 30 plus?
feeling much contented.
so went home and she was fast asleep. bud not fer long.wahahhas.
and i felt kinda sad a bit fer her.
my sis culdnt webcam her todae and my dad will only be bak later at nite.
so dat leaves her, me and my mum. ON HER BURFDAE =(
nvm bout dat.
so she slowly opened her like never-ending presents can?
she opened mine first!!!!!!! hahahas.
so tmr shes gona play those games.
ahh, i juz love my sister a lot. nono.

I LOVE MY 2 SISTERS A LOT.
u mean the whole world to me (:

*i know u mean well but this is getting hard on me.
i do not want u to turn out to be one of those f*ckers,
who walks in and toys around wif peoples feelings.
bud ure nice. no ure juz too nice. dats the problem.
maybe im over-reacting. as usual?

yay-ness! wed im going to watch orphanage wif huda and afiq~
i so cant wait.(:

after what i write about him. okay dis is ironic,
what in the world is wrong wif me?!

vina(:

sunday officialy sucks okay?
fountain cum cashier.
slam here and slam dere.
was awfully quiet like a rock.
my face expression was like OMG feel like slapping dat kind.
bud only one person was noticing me the whole time. yes him.

first attempt.
"WHy u look so moody todae?"
i was like uhhh? juz smiled and shurgged my shoulder.

second attempt.
i was slamming down the bleady blender.
"are u okay?"
i juz shrugged off.

third attempt.
quite a few times i caught him looking at me while doing his closing.

fourth attempt.
i juz wanted to leave the store.i sat outside waiting fer heidi to cum bak.
i turned around and saw him standing behind me.
"hey..u okay a not? whats wrong?"
i juz like turned bak than heidi came walking.
and i juz said "di,i go off first okay."
i didnt turned bak and juz walk off as fast as i can.

Fith attempt.
he txted me asking. "hey are u okay? like really okay? Amalina. i still havent talk to u yet".
i was like thinking wad to reply. b4 i knew it, he called me!
i was like huh?
and he was like "hey u okay ke tak?"
and i went "arhh yeahh.i am"
and he told me bak "no like really?"
i was like argh,can i put down the phone?so i said bak"ya im okay...."
and there was a short pause or seems veri long to me.
and he quickly cut me off " are u going home alone?"
i juz said "yes".
and he like "oh okay. take care of urself".

sixth attempt.
he msged me asking me to cheer up.
i felt bad fer real.
and he told me this in one of his mesagges.
"i was so shocked when u juz walk off so fast without even saying gdbye at all".
and i felt double bad can?
i didnt mean to la really.
and eventually i apologised to him.
and we both agreed to go out on wed wif huda to talk bout the stories dat he promised me fer todae.

conclusion?
okay i dunnoe.
go figure urself out.
bud whatever it is i tink is juz plain friends concern la.
thou maybe he is the first guy fren whu will ever be dat concern towards me.
so i aprreciate it thou.
ouh and why was i like so snappy at work?
i guess sometimes thinghs juz accumulate to u at one point of time.
and i juz cant stand the fact. SO BOOM!
dats what happen. scary much? u bet.
byes.

vina(:

unexpected-ley i received a msg around 3plus.
frm afiq texting me 'happy working'.
fer a moment i was like all smiles.like real.
than all of a sudden..that happiness came bak crashing down.
and to think of wad my sis said is true.
wads the point of hurting myself again?
he maybe all nice to me now perhaps due to just work.
bud wads the point if i like him bud his heart is 4000 miles away wif sumone else?
haix..malcom,i juz cant be cruel la really. is juz not my forte u know?
no matter how much i want something..if its not meant to be mine than it isnt.
i dun want to break his hopes for her.
really my heart doesnt allow me to do that =(
thou im looking forward to work wif him tmr, guilty conscious will always catch me time and time again.
nvm la i will juz be a gd fren and listen to his love stories.
if dat actually makes him feel better and happy,than why not?
i know u might be thinking..crazy arh? im like hurting myself like dat.
bud those who know me will know my true nature.
im the type whu is other peoples feelings come first b4 mine AT ALL COSTS.
is just in me. i dun even know where that came from la.


and sad to say,now i know why jeslyn is dat type of person where we will hate easily.
her past really didnt serve her well.
and i believe this accumulates to her in time and therefore this happens.
and i juz dun believe how cruel sometimes people or life can be to each other.
throwing away a life juz like dat because sumone doesnt wants it?
i was so hurt and almost closed to tears when i hear the story.

i juz dun understand wads what animore.

*26 days to freedom!

vina(:

seriously..so much fer looking forward to friday can?
and afiq was like a zombie at work la seh.
i swear he looked like he was gona collapse anytime.
so i didnt really wana bother him dat much,so i juz did my work.
apparently the talking only started when we wanted to do closing 0_o
so i was closing alfresco like 3/4 can?
than he frm inside give me dat look "ehh..i wana close alfresco! pleasee.."
and i was like shaking my head and say "no,no..i wana close".
bud sumhow he helped me closed outside and i dunnoe how end up,
he was like scolding me fer the way i close the alfresco can? =o
he said like i nvr close alfresco b4,than he shooed me to go inside.
hahahhas and end up he had difficulty closing outside cause the way i arrange em'.

came to the point he wanted to go throw rubbish.
than shahirah like ask me to accompany him.
bud realy la seh..he was realy going to give way i swear!
and we finally talked about his stories.
kinda interesting and i was like continuing when we reach bak outlet.
than suddenley jeslyn call me to go already.
i was like "WAD...." i wana talk to him larh...
than i msg him asking if he wana tell me the reasons and stuffs like dat after i left.
than he msg me like "Amalina,theres alot alot of thinghs to tel you actuali".
and i was like thinking wah..the story veri long arh seh.
than since he was superbly tired i juz told him to continue on sunday,so yeah.

hhahahs,wad the frigging crap. im wriitng about him in my blog.
okay not that i like him or wad. maybe a small tiny weeny crush.
bud from the way it seems,even thou he keeps telling me he is single.
i believe his heart is attached to the australian gurl.
so yeah,nvm la. at least ive gained another gd fren kan? i dun lose anything in the end.


ouh and sis,great to know ure back safely from the camp.
seriously sis uve put on weight tau. hur hur.
alamak..i miss seeing u on webcam.
monday night we webcam together to celebrate baby's burfdae okay?
muaacks. miss u so much la sis.
so many thinghs have to tel u.haix.

vina(:

yesterday night i had difficulty sleeping.
i was like messaging fatima till about 1am plus plus.
than i tossed and turned and was about to fall asleep...when..
my phone vibrated and it was my sis whu msg me 3am!
i was like "OUH? shes awake like 6am? so early?"
and she was like saying shes gona leave fer camping soon.
and since shes gona be in the mountains dere will be no reception.
like DUHH kan? hahas,so she cant talk to me fer a few days until monday.
so i was like..umms yeah okay.."i miss u too la sis.like a lot"
anyhoos,HAPPY EASTERS HOLIDAYS to my sis and sofia who is enjoying their break over there.
and HaPPy Good Friday to umms everione back at here? hahahs.

so just another thursday.
i didnt get to see my younger sister fer like 2 days cause i was on 12-11 shifts.
im always a nice sister,so i took her back frm sch juz now.
and HO HO! i saw her crush the guy name Haris. and i absent-mindely stared at the kid.
and he was like looking at me like "Uh OH..did i do something wrong?" =/
hahhas.ranted wif her about her school.
did her homework with her,had lunch,played some computer games.
and i thought of going out to compass to buy her burfdae prezzie.
i like fell asleep till 6:30 pm can?!
and my head was spinning,culdnt take it animore...
so with whatever i was dressed, i grabbed my wallet..
and headed my way to SPC,lols,not compass ehs.
and i bought CLEO magazine plus a bottle of mango tea and a bar of chocolates plus oldchangkee.
hahhas, a gd way to pamper myself out of nowhere.
so here i am now...blogging in.

my friendster is back in action.hehs.
only one latest picture of me la wif yanling.
dun wan to put so much,cuz i wana revamp my hair as promised.
i plan to do it,hopefully before kak huda's wedding.
so after much decided i decide to do at kim robinson.
hahahs,dunoe how much,bud they said is reasonable..so yeah.
my budget is 200 la.so yeah.
bak to the friendster topic,hahahs.
so we have been exchanging comments like crazy.
me btw,afiq,huda,fadliana and fatima.
ho ho ho,veri crazy i have to admit.
bud me and afiq are like looking forward to work on friday,which is tmr nite.
hehs,fer fun la than?
there are so many thinghs yet to know bout him.

speaking of new frens.
im already missing one of dem.
he left silently and quietly juz like dat.
i also dun remember when was the last time i work wif him.
ah veri sedih seh. bud i have his picture in my phone.
im missing u la yongchun!
u were the oldest among of all the old staff.
u will be and the only guy i ever call "THE MAN! HIS THE MAN!" (:
he is the most unqiue and romantic guy u can ever find around i swear.
he is a chinese whith superbly curly hair.
one look at him and u will think he is in poly doing some business or engineering stuffs.
bud to the fact he is a NUS undergraduate majoring in arts[geography] like abg rahiz! =D
he really encourage me to go fer my dream,and i have to thank him.
without him,life at chinatown will also not be possible.so yeah (:
he has found a new job at Zouk.
hahahs like shahirah said " any free passes?" haas. =p
gd luck in ur new job! we are going to miss you.
noo..im already missing you.
hopefully we get to reunite with all of the old staff ONE DAY (:

thats him being all geography (: HAW HAW!


till then.
*29 days left

vina(:

OH GOD.
how cam i forget the most important day of my life?

HAPPY-haPPY 11 MONTHS TO ME! (:

and im so counting down the days till my im bond-free.yea baby!
ive learnt so much.
and the next remaining days im counting down,
will be a huge challenge fer me!

and is hard to believe,is exactly one month since ive left you.
and you were nothing and juz turned out to be a huge disappointment.
im glad i left you.
bud
im sorry to know that there is all you can be.
maybe i did throw away a gd friendship after six long years.
but it shows more than that.
bye you.
you are not going to walk into my life again.

ive made new lovable friends.
presenting nor afiq and nurul huda (:
haas-so ive gotten a tiny crush on afiq.
and huda is my new locker partner.
and that tiny crush has lead to so many stories.
seriously,i dunnoe wads what animore.
ouh and im afraid of getting hurt again mind you.
so i will probably take down a walk of juz being myself lane again.
it doesnt help much either when he wants to work the same shifts as me.
say that as juz being nice as friends.
bud it can get really complicated when sumone else also likes him.
as in like my friend,my colleague,or whatever u call it except bestfren.
i dun want unecessary issues to happen.
so playing dumb and mysterious will be my key role this time round.
oh yes.I LOVE DOING THAT (:
till time reveals more.

lurvve evrione dere is (:
hugs-

*30 more days to FREEDOM!
vina(:

im bak from such a long bud delicious day =D
all of us were so glad to see alvin todae,seriously!
we miss him like heaps.
todaes work was juz individual project.
kinda tired and sleepy and hungry!
had to make my stomache empty fer dinner,hees =)
so i rushed down to wait fer my 2 cuzzins at orchard mrt.
as usual,one of dem has to be late ryte? HAHAHS.
so we like walk so fast to the royal plaza.
soon 6:30pm came and we made our way in.

me and my cuzzy sana,was like OMG! never see before.kiasu seh.
the first thing that caught our eyes was the dessert table and the CHOC FOUNDUE STATION!
it is like superbly LOVES (:
the moment we were seated,we were like "OKAY,what are we getting first?"
i seriously culdnt make up my mind.
i felt like eating everything there is!
so i started from the sushi area...and then..
immediately to the dessert table!
i noe is suppose to be like main food than dessert later on.
bud i swear when ure dere,u cant help urself~
we took more to the chocolates =)
so after our first round. i was like.OKAY NEXT ONTO THE PLATE.
i went to the bread section and helped myself with some of the baked potatos with cheese.
ouh not forgetting the baked mussels with cheese also (:

so ROUND 3.
i helped myself to the fresh seafood.'
i took the lobsters and the OYSTERS!-no is fresh raw oysters-
that was my first time ever eating fresh raw oysters okay?
the taste really stucked onto ur tongue and it was all weird.
i managed to swallowed it down thou. =/
soon after was the DESSERT as in FONDUE =)
i took 2 scoops of chocolate i/c with some toppings.
than strawberries,marshmallows,peaches,dipped at the chocolate fountain =D
total count. i helped myself 3 servings!

in btw,my other cuzzy,kak aida,asked me to take fer her some spagetti.
so i was like yeah sure why not.
apparently u have to tel the chef what u want and they will cook it on the spot.
and yes,this chef caught my eye okay.
he was the Head Chef for the western area.
he wanst the one who cooked my spagetti.
bud sumhow when his junior chef was doing my spagetti,
the head chef stood beside me and was also looking.
than he ask his junior chef," Chef u okay? Later u can bake the croutons?"
wah i think the guy like paisei or stress and was like "Oh arhh yeah,can."
that head chef is not some old guy la okay.
can say veri smart and professional around late 20's? kinda gd-looking arh seh.
u have no idea how many times i passed by the meat and spagetti section! =p

and the whole time we were making fun of sana with this indian waiter.
lols. really sia. this waiter keep replenishing our cutleries non-stop.
and he only refilled her ice-water most of the time la seh.
so so darn hilarious.
than she was mimicking this video about "charlie bite my finger".
ROFL! juz so happen my cuzzin came to the most hilarious part with the voice all,
than the waiter came with the bill,stop for a second and look at her.
WAHAHAHAHS.
bud cuzzy,compare ur impersonation to the video,URS IS LIKE 10 times better. HATS OFF! =D

ouh and going bak,my cuzzy,kak aida spend on me the mouth-watering macaroons!
they look so gd i dun think i wana eat it fer real!
below will be the pictures aites,as i promised my sis? hehehs =D

location: 25 scotts road. opposite the grand Hyatt hotel.
restaurant: Gourmet carousel [halal]
ratings:4/5! -worth the money-

im juz planning to bring along that special sumone to dere.
who is it? hahas,only time will tell aites.
have to congrats my fren,malcom fer going to be in a relationship soon.
he is gona like sort of propose or ask her at the singapore flyer. romantic kan
hahahs.ouh well =) all the best than!


our first round of desserts.


this was my own share! love the creme bulee.



out hunting fer food.my seat is on the right.


haha! the baked mussels plus some bread,crackers and baked potatos.

cuzzys plate of desserts.

apprently her main course.

yummy chicken!

getting all veggy =/

mine,mine,mine!

should be drooling by now (:

round no..arhh lost count..

my heaps of ice-cream and mouth watering dipped marsh,straws,grapes.

ooohh.i forgot wad dis was called. BUD I KNOW IT TASTE DARN GD!

check out their plates.haas.

b4 we head off. thanks fer the treat kak aida! =)

lots of love.

vina (:

halllooooooooooooo my darlings!
ytd which was a saturday,was a OMG INCREDIBLE day fer me.
okay this post goes to my sister who couldnt be dere at the major wedding =)
believe me sis,i almost cried at the wedding.
cause it was ouhh soooo romantic!

we reached at the orchid country club at 6:50pm.
and the first thing that WOW me was we had to go through the police scan.
to make sure we dun carry any metal items with us.
after clearing the inspection,we were greeted by the bride's parents.
which is of course known to me as 'pak busu'.
than we make our way up the grand steps to the ballroom.
still managed to breathe i guessed.
and then to the GRAND BALLROOM. wah seh.
it was like...OMG!! so frigging huge and the ambience so so romantic.
our table is no 29. we were at the back lurh. bud nvm.
we are the first to see the bride and groom enter,so yeah.
a bit like fine dining gitu.
i gossiped wif my cuzzins about everything dere is while waiting.
7:30 pm and only our table was occupied.
around 8pm than the guests starts to fill into the ballroom.

8:15pm THE MAIN VIP. our prime minister made his way thru.
followed by some of the members of parliment.
and everione was like whispering and squealing in a way 0_o
than 8:30pm,the bride and groom came in.
so so so beautiful.
soon after a short speech from the brides and groom brothers.
they even had to translate in german.phuyo.sweet.
than came this starters which is meant fer selected tables.
lols.and our table was one of dem. ahhahhas. great! =D
the other tables around us were all looking la seh. so paisei.
came by the buffet dinner. LOVES.
i had this roti nan wif the chicken and muttons.
and the glorious spread of IRRESISTABLE DESSERTS of mini tarts.
after the goodness dinner,the bride n groom came in fer their finale entrance.
WOW! came in by this golf cart in a way?
and as they rode that into the ballroom, the dj was playing " i want to spend my lifetime loving you". alamak..i was so closed to tears.
after that they had a video montage of them both.sigghhs. so so sweet seh.

thereafter the prime minister had to leave.
tell me if it is typical singaporeans.
bud we juz had to take a picture wif him can?
so my family and my cuzzins family took a picture wif him!
wahahahs,funny lah seh.
followed by a few shots wif the bride and groom.
woots. love it.
went home feeling so shagged.
bud at the same time thinking how lucky they are.haix.
i also want to have a happily ever after like dat?
here are some of the pictures and videos.
the video not so clear,bud is the best that i can get la.




random shot b4 i left the house =p


on the way to the club...


first guests to occupy the dining table. TABLE 29~!


check out the whole ballroom.sweet!


my oh-so-so-crazy-cuzzins! =)


radom shot.the ballroom still empty =/


this is where the prime ministers came in.
try squinting ur eyes a bit.


i give up.this is the best that i can get a shot of him.lols.


random shot.


the starters fer the selected tables.


roti nan and mutton plus chicken fer dinner =D


we took desserts b4 we even finished our dinner.lols.


random shot 3.


i miss those fresh mini tarts =(


their finale entrance.


a'dlina posing wif the cart.hahahs.


getting prepared to go in.



such a lovable couple.awwww.


any moment.


the berkat is this expensive chocolate.




wow.okays im tired.
till then everione. bbyes.

vina (:

hello my dearest readers (:

let me rant about something first okay?
u can skip this part and dun read.
is about my ex lurh. not worth reading..budd..
i still wana blog in.
cant help to view his profile AGAIN.
and i went and see his gurl or my fren nyer profile.
darn. she took a picture of dem holding hands.
and for a minute i thought of dis...
"SHIT. i used to hold hands wif him[that idiot]"
and to see that bein framed up wif another person.
and i cant help to think that maybe the gurl..is trying to make me feel jealous?
i know is a stupid idea,bud people do react to that extent u knw.
argh.okay wadever la. u were juz a damn experimental companionship okay?

anyhoos,i MIZ MY SISTER a lot.
sis,if u reading dis..im missing u like crap okays?
countless day nvr get to webcam wif u.
haix...and is it juz my eyes playing tricks on me..or
uve grown extremley FAT. -okay im exaggerating-
bud ur face dah mcm tembam like me seh.
woo-hoo! make sure when i go dere,feed me what u eat hor.

ouh-ouh,and todae i get to work wif the new part-timer afiq.
not so gd looking la,bud can say charming also?
suppose to go funan,bud kena throw to chinatown.lols.
he is like..hmm..nak kata kan a bit selenger okay arh.
so i juz cant help wanting to know whether his attached a not la.
than i was juz doing a biodata checking on him,over supper.
and i was like where u schooling,how old are u,and bla bla bla.
haha! and like bingo! he is studying in TP.diploma in culinary management thinghy.
and i was like WOAH...he isnpires to be a chef ke?
and yes..u know i have a weakness fer guys who can cook.
in shorter words those who ambition is to be or already a CHEF.
I DUNNOE WHY. SO DUN ASK OKAY.so back to the main point.
than my manager interrupted halfway.
"the reason why she asking u so many question is because she wants to know whether ure attached a not".
and i was like "WEI,u dun talk rubbish la.i juz want to know more bout him ryte,dats all." i was like stumbling wif my words.
all he did was to juz laugh can? SO MALU LAH SEH.
than i walked away to the dishwasher area to put the plates.
than i overheard my manager asking again "so..are u attached a not?"
than he was like "urhhh..tak arh."
WAAHHAHAHS..okays i know is a bit headache to read my entry.
bud to think again..he is like too toung.ONE YEAR YOUNGER.hahahs x)
maybe he looks a bit matured fer his age arh.
bud think again..nah..wad are the chanches.
later another rollercoaster ride.
than u all have to console me.wah sian ryte?
hahahas..give all of u a break (:

and i cant believe that mas is transferring out!
shes moving to plaza sing,
whule salamah and sunny going to funan.
and guess who is coming in or bak??
YES! MY NEW AM-RAUDAH =)
and MY OLD AM- MICHELLE.
all EX FUNAN.woohoo! =D
okay...maybe is not dat bad.
bud damn...im gona miss MAS a lot can? haix.
dun say..her last day at chinatown im gona cry =(
bummer.

crap.tmr im going fer the dinner at orchid country club.zzz.
dun remind me,im dat close to wearing a dress..in less than 24hrs time.
shit.
bye people.

vina (:

here i am blogging in again.
sheesh-wad a life i have.
aniwaes,got home and saw the SIM brochure i requested.
hehs,love the course.
bud wad are the chances of getting in?
UMMMS..URHHH...yea u get my point right?
bud dat doesnt mean i shuld give up either right?
at least if i send in my application and it goes...
"dear ms bla bla bla, we are very sorry to inform u that ur
application fer the bachelor in bla bla bla has been unsuccesful".
so at least if i received that letter,i know i had tried..kan-kan?
ive still got months to go..so no rushing.
can send in the application when i start back full time at u noe where.
okay enuf about this.

i dun wana scramble about work here also.
thou dere are too many happenings lately.
let my contract or bond or attachment or whatever finish first.
than after dat bitch about how ironic people can get.

i shuld really be doing my budget assignment
rather than watching sailor moon..zzz.
whatever.

ouh-BYE EXPERIMENTAL COMPANIONSHIP *courtesy of nadia (:
HELLO TASSIE (: and ouh so CUTE AUSSIE HUNKS =p

footpriints.X))

i better start blogging in b4 i go bonkers.
suppose to webcam my sis ytd...bud..
i promised yanling and my chefs we head out fer dinner.
we planed to celebrate yanlings burfdae =)
it was soo gd =)
we ate at fish and co. i ate the seafood combo fer one! =D
trust me..i nvr felt soo full before in my entire life.
we did walked around after that at bugis.
OMG and there were like glasses frm PUMA,GUCCI,DIOR,GUESS ON SALE!
and there were also those brands fer shades.
i was like.."shit..wheres the money when i need it.darn."
okay nvm..i will get it b4 i fly off.

speaking of dat..after knock off frm work at 5pm,
my parents picked me up to go to Concepts Vacation office.
haha,YES. we finally booked the tickets and visa.
got out flight details,yay-ness!
going dere is by qantas to melbourne than to hobart.
than go bak is frm hobart to sydney than bak to sg by british airways!
lols.finally =D
okay..i will make sure im gona shop-shop!

hmmm...thinking bout my studies fer the future..
giving me a huge headache really.
im gona try out fer SIM.
i dunnoe wad are the chances that can get in.
bud hopefully insya-Allah i hope i can get in! =/
if theres no chance..than i revert bak to my HTMI dream.
hehes..doesnt matter.
in both ways i still wana reach fer my dream,huge time.

now im gona do my budget and financial assignment.
bummer =/
ciao.

footpriints.X))

im soo in love wif next week work schedule.
im like morning shift straight except fer friday.
and yay-ness,saturday im off!
well dats cause have to attend the wedding dinner u knw.

work was tiring cause im like fountain.bleahs.
dun really like em'.
anyways. had a gd talk wif fad and min.
about what happened to my life.
and thanks fer listening and sharing ur opinions (:
really felt better. luurrvve u guys la.

seriously,he-my ex- shuld get a life la.fer real.
wads wif the idea of getting sumone in less than 3 weeks?
and not hard to believe..u used the same tactic to get her.
like how u did to me.
is sumthing really worng wif u?
muz be dat desperate to be in a relationship huh.
"fool me once,shame on you.Fool me twice,shame on me".
and u knw wad? im not gonna be dat frigging fool again.
get that in ur head.
if even for a minute,u had taught that i was sum kind of a gurl,
to juz be dere fer ur hugs and kisses.
let me tell you this.

SCREW U, U &^%%$$#@!! Idiot.
and my frens told me there was no point in hating you.
bud im juz so disgusted by ur capibility.
im glad im out of ur life..fer sure.
let this be a lesson learnt fer me.

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm over your hands,
and I'm over your mouth.
Trying to drag me down,
and fill me with self-doubt

Don't call,
don't come by,
ain't no use,
don't ask me why,
you'll never change,
there'll be no more crying in the rain.


footpriints.X))

so how am i doing if u guys wana know?
umms,GREAT! =D
hahahs,thanks so much everione fer comforting me.
i mean seriously.
is like ytd i received several msges frm u guys,
to double check how am i.
I cant be grateful enuf to know that i have friends and cuzzins who care (:
thou is a little bit hard...ive decided to juz let go u knw?
no point hoping in something when u know is juz not gonna come true.

anyways,ytd nite was suppose to be webcaming wif my sister.
bud unexpectedly there were like a huge group at the bckground.
she had her frens over having dinner and was gona watch movie later part.
awww. i mean i like i juz woke up frm sleep dat kind...
and one of her frens..which my sis was trying to "introduce" name mr fazal,
was like trying to webcam wif me la.
and i was caught off guard..so i hid frm the webcam.HAHAHS!
bud finally..i decided to came to my senses..and juz showed my frigging face.
ahhahahas...it was so so so FUNNY. I SWEAR.
they all were laughing like shit at their side and so were ours.
i would never forget ytd dats fer sure.
wow,im so looking forward to june hehs.
okay..he is not dat so so gd-looking u knw?
bud charming i have to admit. wahahahahs =p
ooopps...shhhhhhhhhh. x)

have to go to wrk now.
byesss. love u honeybunches =)

vina-

my worst fears came true.
my ex got attached wif another of my pri sch fren.
i asked him about it..and so yeah.
and i cried instantly like a waterfall.
i dunnoe why i even did cry u know?
bud maybe the fact that in 3 weeks,he managed to get sumone.
bud wad sucks the most,that the gurl is no stranger k.
she is MY FREN;MY PRI SCH FREN.
how did u think i shuld felt?
and worst,she live same estate as me.
i cannot imagine seeing dem together and he sending her home.
im feeling so lost and hollow u know?

bud despite how shitty i felt..
i had cuzzins and frens who really cared.
they keep teeling me dat i will be okay.
and i deserve sumone better.
time will tell.
like my cuzzzy hafiz said..
"u dun have to revamp urself. juz be urself,with a bit of confidence"
i like dat..and it really cheered me up.
there are so many other better guys out there.
tis is what azri told me..
"maybe is like not her fault to be wif him. maybe he is juz not worth it? think of it this way. she has got sumone that it is not worth being for while you have the chance in the future to find sumone better"
i agree wif dat.i felt like screaming and juz crying even more.
and this wis wad shahirah,sholleh and yanling told me.
"juz cry everything out". " after u finish crying.make sure u wipe off that last drop and dun cry again for him ever. he is not worth for everything dere is."
"time will heal when reasons cant,be strong"

from the bottom of my heart. thank you to every single one of you.
i know it was my mistake to keep viewing his profile.
bud i guess it was better that i found out the truth now..
than rather hoping fer sumthing and to be crashed more badly later on.
i dont hold grudges...i dun hate him.
thou it may be a bit hard fer me fer the gurl.
Insay-Allah god will help my troubled heart to ease.
i hope they have a better relationship.

maybe i was juz meant to have a singlehood life fer now.
ouhh attachment wont u finish faster?
final project can i juz get and done over wif you?
can kak huda's wedding come sooner? i want to wear inai!
money wont u fall down from the sky?
so that i can revamp my hair and get the Gucci shades?
oh and june wont u juz come now..so that i can visit my sister already?

please do fill up my time.
im mending my broken heart once again.
a relationship that is over. i juz need to learn and move on.
i shuld sleep now.
tmr will be a better day. amin.

was'salam.

vina

im bakk..frm having a movie date =D
hahas,no lurh. juz random go out wif my bestie SHOLLEH! =D
yes-yes. i had such a gd time thou.

i apparently took bus no 3 and it dragged to pasir ris.
and yea..reminded me of my ex sadly.
bud i decided to juz focus on my new interesting book,so yeah.
eventually i ended up at tampines mall around 8:50pm.
and waited fer sumone like 9:15pm can?! grrr.
we culdnt decided whether to watch Juno or The Leap Years.
finally we decided to watch Juno.
bud my poor bestie here didnt had his dinner.
we grab like a 15mins bite at Pastamania! it was yummys.
we like shared the food,cuz i wasnt really starving.
we rushed to the theatre and the movie already started.wahahhas.

so my review on Juno?
defeniteley worth watching..thou
the storyline may be a bit "like common".
bud language wise..is gd stuffs.hahahs.
almost to the ending part i cried.
i mean is like u can actually learn stuffs from movies like this.
one thing is fer sure : no matter how desperate u wana make out',always carry a condom around. lols.wad shit am i talking.
bud really la....end up the gurl is pregnant.
bud also shows that sometimes even when ure dat kind of shitty situations,
u can always choose how u want it to end up after all.
eiher it goes abortion or give the baby to a family who needs it.
get wad i mean? doesnt have to apply when ure pregnant or wad la.
bud in shorter terms: you dun get to really choose wads in store fer u fer life.
the story has already been written. and sometimes shit stuffs happen when we least expect dem to happen 0_0 bud how we choose to see it and face it, that is up to each individual. is not easy,bud hey deres always a goodness to it.

besides all dat..i really wana thank my bestie sholleh,
fer like making my day =D
thank youus..fer treating me also.hehehs.
we meet up again in days,weeks,months to come.lols.


ps: damn. i shuldnt be like seeing my ex profile la.
bud i juz cant help it.
so wad do i get in the end. more heart pain.
sumone else is after him.='(
the feeling sucks so much i threw up my dinner.
yes dat bad.bummer.
how i wish i can move on..........................

bye.


footpriints.X))

can the days go faster?
i juz cant wait to be free frm the attachment.
so many new part-timers.
ouhh and I MET MY TWIN!
YES. not mly la.
she chinese.same age.same height and weight!
and same frigging skinny!
finally i got sumone who understand my pains and woes of juz naturally skinny.
hahas,i think im going to hit off wif her extra well =D

i had a gd talk wif my sec sch mate;sholleh till 2am ytd nite.
it was like..we were laughing like shit and crapping nonsense can?
oh gawd..i miss him so much!
and he actually read out my mind about my ex.
and ive to thank him fer dat =)
thou everiones else encourgaements and believes also plays a part.
is true..i need time. bud i do not knw how long.

any case,im trying to go fer changes.
from my msn(hotmail)to my friendster..
and about soon i hope...my hair!
have a hard time deciding on either kimage or reds. 0_o
than my dressing.
and BOOM!
you get a NEW AMALINA,bud wif same old loving heart and personality.
maybe another words is trying to cover up the deep scar.
bud if its worth every inch,than why not?
boost up my self-esteem also =)

oh well. stupid love.

footpriints.X))

juz finish webcaming wif my sis.
okay wait,deres sumthing superb wrong wif blogger.
is like the font is all different.
and theres no text or colour button seh.darn.
okay nvm.

so todae is like my off day.in other words clear PH.
so i went out wif my parents to PS to get fer my sis more winter clothinghs.
finally after quite some time it was done and over with.
than we went to the John Little Sale.
and it was niiceee...i get a lot of gurls stuff.
u know i know we know la. cannot put so direct cuz got my guy cuzzins reading! =D
hahahahhas.
wow,okay so fast is march 4th.
unbelievable. i cant wait fer march to pass by.
b4 long is major countdown to my last strech of attachment.

and dat reminds me, next saturday i have wedding dinner at orchid country club.
my dad's uncle the daughter getting married.
and is like my dad ask me to wear a dress?!
i was like..OH FRIGGING SHIT.
are u kidding me???!
me wearing a dress...arghh..no no no..
like horror nightmare. u knw?
wad am i ever to do?


can i juz throw away dat jealousy feeling of mine?
i so wana a revamp hairstyle and dressing.
so that i dun feel that i need him in my life.
a change will be good. yes..a drastic change will be good.

footpriints.X))

ouhh and im starting to love MONDAYS! =D
todae alvin did not take our claz again..bummer. it was dat terrence.
hmm..kinda interesting.
we learned how to slice carrot,onion and cut chicken the proper way.
shit la..and i get to do the hardest which is dicing the onions in a proper way.
so frigging troublesome sia.dammit.
bud lunch was super good dat i had to take pictures and video.
and i dunnoe why i had a feeling to buy the straits time.
so i happen to look thru the classified and they were advertising on hospitality sch.
than there was this 2 swiss hotel schs on seminar this saturday!
and one of the schools abg rahiz recommended to me.
so i thought since i got more than ample time..i shuld look thru other swiss hotel schs =D
ouhh and morning we got webcam my sis.
she gave us a tour of her house! it was nice la. so spacious =D
i sooo cant wait to go dere! =D
hahhas.


my delicious maggi goreng!


thats sandi also eating the same thing =D



this is irritating malcom =p


this is cheeky shidah =)


gorgeous sarah trying to fight wif the chicken =p


terrence and sarah.


hahas..so fake la the smile.


glaring at dunnoe whu =p


sarah's hand is always reaching fer something!

hallooo people.
a gd sunday morning.
finally get my sis to go online.
sch on a sunday? hahhas..dats more sadistic.
aniwaes..internet connection here very poor,so culd not webcam.
hees =D she did gave me recent pics of her
here-here..i upload them. seems to me shes adjusting well =)









till then. im off bak to dreamland.wahahahs.


footpriints.X))

HaPPy 21St BurFDaE SiS! =D

i love u so much my dearie sis.
may Allah always watch over you at dere.
i know dis is ur first burfdae,21st sumore..without us..
bud hey is a gd way to experience and remember fer a lifetime kan?
so fast ure already 21.
so now ure like WOW IM PARENT-FREE! wheee..by law.
bud no matter wad happens..they will still nag at u la.zzz.
i love u no matter wad happens.
wait fer me in june okays?
i will like hug and bitch wif u fer 7-9 days.hehs x)

anyways..ytd i had a chat wif both of my ex-es
the first and the third. the second..hmm..ohh weell.
the first was thru msg,juz simply weird la. bud wadever.
im more concern and dwelling about the third.
heres a peek to the conversation at msn.
i came home from stock check at 2:45am.
and i chatted wif him at 3am.
so here it goes.

me: hi

him: hi

him: howru?

me: umms..in btw the line of okay and not okay-haas

me: how bout u?

him: okay

him: i guess

me: do u like hate me or angry at me or sumthing?

him: huh?

him: no larh

him: wad fer?

me: i was juz wondering..dats all..

him: haha

and we continued talking about him cutting his hair and psp games.
and as usual he was on morning shift and slept late again.
so i was like "can u go slp? like wad time already"
seriously eventhou im not wif him already..
i guess is juz a habit in me to keep telling him to slp early. haix.
and dat makes me remind of being wif him more?
i know i shuldnt regret on my decision..
bud i dunt knw why the feeling wont go away, u knw?
like everidae..i will think of him la.argh.
and to see the teddybear he give me each nite =(
wheres my happy ending? i lost it halfway...great.
my nick and friendster i put so many hints of wad im feeling about him.
bud is either he really deosnt know or he is juz pretending not to care.
maybe this is a gd lesson fer me huh?
juz like my second ex..i really need awful time to move on..bud im doing it.
and now comes the third..and i have to do it double hard.
LIKE THANKS A LOT. -NOT-

i wana book the air tickets later 0_o
i hope dat will make my day...i HOPE =(

footpriints.X))

AmalinaVina (:
Nineteen
I <3 my BB Curve
I <3 3D Origami

I just wanna be happy (:

I wonder if there's anyone who will tell me this.....
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hmmm?
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