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No rants for you peeps.

i really dont know why sometimes i even bother to work on the eve really.

zomg. the amount of people streaming in was craaaaazy! can i scream!

we didnt stop doing at all. it was continuous.

and i get to talk with shahirah. how cool is dat. we managed to catch up ater quite some timee.

well dats the end of 2008 people.

it has been one hell of a journey for me i feel.

whether 2008 has taken all of u through a great journey or holligible,is done and over with.

only memories are to be kept.

im wishing all my readers and all my other frens...

an aweeeesommee 2009 to come! in less than 5 hours.

may 2009 take on a brighter future for all of u!

gambate! (:

mahal kita!! to all my readers (:

stay healthy and happy always.

toodles.

for tmr is a brand new day and chapter for everione! x)


vina(:

work can really be a pain in the ass sometimes.

bud is nice to know that the people are still the same old-same old.

and i met my sidekick juz now!! (: (:

is like after days and weeks and coming to a month!

and i get to meet the whole clan of USQ chicks and hunks. well not so la.

very nice bunch (:

and my crave for almond crusted lamb chops plus hazel daze has been fufilled.

hehe.

okay people.

since tmr will be the last day of 2008 im going to make the best out of it.

by smiling a crap out of the customers and enoying my cuzzy dinner burfdae!

uhmms..sssoo...as i promised my new year resolution...

not that i will remember it by june or something...bud yeah (:

a)travel around EUROPE, baby! im really eyeing on dis..hopefuly during june-august period.

b)save money of course for the trip (:

c)take part in the SCM half marathon! woo-hoo!

d)frequent trips to the gyms and running.

there u have it. very general, very acheivable if i want to.

i will cee u guys tmr for a last post in this blog for the year of 2008!

toooooooodleeeeees! (:

make the best out of tmr!!

vina(:

im back frm a hell of awesome trip ever in my entire life!

firstly no parents.

secondly i was sick bud i survived!

thirdly i get to satisfy ALL of my food cravings.

fourthly this is the first trip that i use my OWN money. parents didnt chip in at all.

amazing stuffs really.

didnt see my cuzzin at KL thou. she was slacking at macs eh. hahahs =p

im really shagged.

still not recovered frm being sick.tsk.

ouh and sumone is back home already.

on chirstmas if im not wrong? =0

oh wells. now we shall wait and see wads the outcome.

im much better. much stable. much of everything dere is.

hahhas aniwaes...

i really cant decide where to go next year!

hmmm...so shall it be europe or aussie?

u knw wad...i feel like just travelling next year.

that will be such an awesome way to spend my 2009.

do nothing bud juz working and travelling. ;)

keep u guys updated.

much <3s


vina(:

you know i feel like making my blog open again.

bud im still not quite sure thou.

my archives are so so so many.

unwanted people will look thru my archives.

not dat i care wad they think.

bud im defenitely not interested to let my EX(s) and history flings read thru my life.

thou ive got nothing to hide bud they can really comment a lot.

im really very drowsy right now.

on medication.

juz shuld let u people know.

i wont be around.

im off to KL and Genting for the next five days.

yes despite my sick condition.

how can i miss a four star hotel and good food and SHOPPING!

i doubt im gona shop a lot thou.

and all those cam-whoring wif my cuzzin ):

im starting to heal up,thank u (:

u know wad. maybe i will meet him up after all. if he still wana meet up wif me.

yea ive sorted out my thinking.

wad do i have to lose right?

ive got one chance. one life. live it right.

seriously,i have to bunk on my bed right now.

take care.

wishing all my readers a very happy x'mas! (: (:

vina(:

im starting to get sick.

this is not good.

i shouldnt be falling sick at dis point of time.

im going to KL in two days time and falling sick is the last thing i wana happen.

im trying my best to fight it off.

ive been drinking lots of fluids again and again and again.

until i cant push down any more liquid down my throat.

i can feel my body starts to warm up,catching a fever like fast man.

im really worried that i will have to bail out on the trip.

after all the drama that has happened. i need a getaway.

i dun wana be stuck lying in my bed and juz staring at my lappie.

im gona be sick even more than ever.

i wanna gooooo for the trippppppp. oh god,please,please.

my body muz have been too worked up for the past few days.

sighs.no good.no good.

and todaes work was a pain in the ass. nothing new.

bitchy customers=bitchy service crew. hah!

oh and asyraf,hope ur leg/knee is better now.

if it gets worser go and see a doctor ohkay! tcs,twilight maniac! (: (:

my head is starting to spin like never before.

im gona take a break here.

takecare people.

vina=/

i read through all my friends blog.

i cant help for posting another entry.

and ive only got a question to ask myself


WHAT IN THE SPECK OF THE WORLD AM I DOING?

no really.


WHAT IN THE WORLD AM I DOING TO MYSELF?

i cant believe i moped around!

i cant believe i wasted like what close to a week dreading everyday!

i cant believe i thought my world was going to crash down on me!

shit man.

i really do things that amaze myself and people around me.honestly.

no nothing chg the fact about him. he is still there living life.

wad about me? -____-"

im complaining and cursing and swearing cause things dun turn out the way i want dem to be.

wad am i. a ten year old to do that? GOD.

sumone kick me in the butt for heaven's sake!

this is so furious.

i shuld be enjoying my last moments of 2008 like wad all my other frens did.

not dat im saying spending time wif myself is a wrong thing to do.

bud i thought i can spend time more wisely.

sometimes i really dont know what to do wif myself.

and when i look back at all the previous entries,

i cant help bud to laugh really! lol. is so funny when love bug takes over u.

i cant believe i post all of dat out of emotions. hahahahs.

is like "wad? is this really amalina posting all of this?"

hahahs..sorry guys. bud this really happens. (:

when the love bugs get me,this is the outcome.

finally im laughing and smiling to myself. NO IM NOT DELUSIONAL.

tmr will be a better day wif all those crazy customers swearing for their food to come! =D

vina(:

is gona be a long road to recovery.

bud im determined to do it by 2009!

begging my heart and mind not to fail me man.

so wads my retail theraphy gona be?

ive bought a book by jodi picoult :change of heart. (damn bloody good e storyline)

ive bought like a cardigan and 2 spaghetti tops from cotton on.

i think im gona indulge on those quality street chocolates ;)

tmr muz muz muz go gym. need to burn off those calories.

oh! and todae ive watched two movies continuosly.

i think the GV ticket seller thinks i muz be crazy.

i watched Yes Man at 11:35am. it ended at 1:30pm.

i watched Bolt after dat at 1:45pm. it ended at 3:10pm dere.

yes,lemme highlight to u i watched both of the movies ALONE.

and for gods sake,theres nothing wrong wif doing that.

i dun have to run through wads wif Bolt movie as majority of u already watched it.

Yes Man? i needed something inspring and motivating.

defeniteley worth ur penny to watch.

say yes,not because u have to. say yes, because u WANT TO!

wads the point of saying yes,if ur heart is reluctant right?

we have to be smart in making choices.

well i do have to admit sometimes,we have to take those risks alright.

u people get the idea. so go out there and start saying YES! hahhas.

maybe i shuld start adding that for my 2009 resolution. *smugs

ps: i know things will get better. i know it will. my heart knows it will. the rainbow will come shining down on me sooner than i expect it to be. is all a matter of time.....all about time...


vina(:

maybe i shuld put my new year resolution.

IS TO FIND A GUY 100000000 better than u.

forget it.no such guy exist like dat.

the most is edward in my fantasies.

ive muz be really in dat spot. cause all they say to me is...

"omg.why u look so sad?" =/

"if ure at the airport alone,means is disastrous" -_-"

i didnt mean to put myself in dat sistuation.

i swear if i could have planted a smile on my face i wuld have done dat.

i wana thank these people for sharing thru my pain and willing to help me out ;)

arifah,sandi,sis,fasya.

and i presume more to come after they read my entries.

in advanced thanks. (:

my sister told me to win his heart?? 0_0

is like im fighting for a losing battle.

well eventhou ure fighting in a losing battle...dat doesnt mean u muz give up.

win or lose fight till the end. cause u knw u've tried.

if dat battle is not mean to be won,than it isnt.

if its meant to be won,than the glory shall be urs.

most importantly: fight till the very last man.

okay all this battle thing,im trying to tell this to myself okay.


is not the rejection part la.

is the part where i didnt have the chance to even tell him~!

and sumone else cuts in. GREAT.

rejection after that nvm la. i mean of course it will be sucky.

bud at least i did say right! and that means i tried!

zomg,and is like : THE RETURN OF THE GURLFREN DOOM 2 -_-"

ga ga ga.

this is more freaky.

i couldnt sleep well ytd nite of course eventhou i was so shagged.

u knw wad happen? around seven plus i fell asleep.

and around eight i woke up sweating!

cause-cause-cause.

i dreamt that he was my swensens manager! ZOMG.

it was so scary. he wore black glasses and his name was: inferior???? -_-"

no,im not making up a sum kind of fairytale story.

this is like sumwhere close to nightmare man.

maybe i was too scared dat why i woke up sweating...sigh...


and they say women are hard to understand.

look at guys.they are so frigging fickle-minded.

they can throw themselves into the ocean.

whatever the outcome if he is single or attached or whatever it is.

IM NOT GONA SEE HIM AT ALL.

looks like he will be back here next week.

if im gona ask u whether i shuld meet him,

JUZ SAY TO ME, NO AMALINA. DON'T.
ure gona suffer more.

if i ask why? give me a LIGHT slap or a virtual slap.

thanks.


vina

oh guess wad?!

now his IN LOVE wif I DUNNOE WHO.

YUPS GREAT.

IM REALLY ALL NUMB.

FCKED UP.

ADD ON FOR ME PEOPLE.

WHY DONT I EVER LEARNT MY LESSON ABOUT THIS HUMAN MEN.

U CAN REALLY DO ME A FAVOUR BY FCKING OFF.

I DUN WANA SEE U.

OH WAIT. WHY WOULD U WANA SEE ME RIGHT.

GREAT. MAKE THINGS SIMPLER FOR ME.


thank god that im going for my trip next week.
and i will be working before dat.
and i will be going to gym!
and i have my cuzzin and uncle birthday celebration to look forward.
so my mind will always be pre-occupied.

i dun need u,u loser.
wait. u dun even know dat part.
u dun have to know wad my resolutions are.
whatever from A-Z.


before i spit out more vulgars.
do me a favour by disappearing from my life.
actually ure doing a good job for the past few days.
juz keep going.

vina

SeLamAT PeNgatIn BArU~!

to my cuzzy (raihan) and his wife (siti fatima)
may Allah always bless the both of ya forever and always.
wishing u a blissful marriage for eternity. =D


zomg. my cuzzin is finally and officially married. ahhhhhhhh.
so aweeeeesome at the nikah ytd.
hahhas,i was the odd one out wearing simple slack clothes. ga ga ga ga.

and i get to do my hand wif henna,
credits go to kak lin for the spontaneous design.
is uberly nice <3s.

going to the wedding in 2hrs time.
this time round the wedding is gonna last way longer.
so have to be prepared smiling and make-up muz be fresh.

and i havent been going to the gym for weeks!
and my body feels out of shape and very tired lately.
i muz,muz go the gym routinely next year.
im starting to have an idea of my new year resolutions next year.
and of dem,is to travel.
to where? haha..i shall fill in the details when im back frm my KL and Genting trip.
till then.

<3s

vina(:

1. The person who tagged you is …

-NurHanisa

2. Your relationship with him/her?

-Cuzzins for life man! (:

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?

-Secretive,humble,smarty-smart,down to earth,bubbly.

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has done for you?

-ooooooh,hahhas...secret! shhh.

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?

-giving me encouragements from time to time;endless yeah.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will …

-hahahas,still continue to love her,cause u cant count love in any way (:

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be …

-is there a need to? i dunnoe....i dont think so...shes cool as she can be.huhu.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will …..

-HUNT HER DOWN! ahahhahahas. nah jkjk. haha,cuzzy fill dis up for me!

9. If he/she dies, you will.....

- remember her in every single way that is within my reach.

10. What is it you want to tell him/her now?

-rock on cuzzy! and thanks for making a hole in my pocket for recommending all those bks!

11. Your overall impression of him/her?

-A_W_E_S_O_M_E chick. ;)

12. How do you think people around you will feel?

-feel about her? hahas,shes easy to get along,so she will be just find.

13. The characters you love of yourself are …

-now myself? hmmm....down-to-earth personally. the rest u people think for me. hahahs.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are …

-i cant talk back!! i wish i had dat ability to talk back. can stand up for myself...sigh...

15. The most ideal person you want to be is ….

-no ideal la. maybe like edward cullen. be a vampire 0_0

16. For people who care and like you, say something to them …

-all of u are my honeybunches (: (: i may not get to spend time wif all of u or even text u all a msg to say that i miss u, or hi how's life? bud i juz want u all to know that i really do miss everyone of u even if i get to spend time wif u. treasure life like theres no tmr, <3s

17. Pass this quiz to 10 peoples that you wish to know how they feel about you.
(1)sandi
(2)sarah
(3)afiq
(4)asyraf
(5)fasya
(6)fatima
(7)boboy
(8)sis
(9)syamim
(10)xinying

18. Who is no. 6 having a relationship with?

-she single baby!

19. Is no. 9 a male or female?

-duh.MALE.

20. If no. 7 and no. 10 are together, will it be a good thing?

- eh NO! no 7 girlfren will chase after no.10. cant let dat happen!

21. What is no. 2 studying all about?

-dats complicating. shes still trying to figure it out.

22. When was the last time you chatted with no. 3?

-huhu YTD! and he wana go to aussie after he graduate to see marini x)

23. What kind of music band no. 8 likes?

-what i like,she like. simple.

24. Does no.1 has any siblings?

-yeaps an older sister.

25. Will you woo no. 3 ?

-ZOMG. hahhas, at the beginning yes. after dat NAHHH. =p

26. How about no. 7 , will you woo him/her?

-ZOMG. dats my cuzzin u toot! maybe if he wasnt? ROFL. =p

27. Is no. 4 single?

-asyraf? hahahs,hell yea.

28. What is the surname of no. 5?

-Binti Kamil

29. What is the hobby of no. 10?

-stoning and blurring =D

30. Does no. 5&9 get along?

-they dont even know each other!

31. Where is no. 2 studying at?

-schooless. bud we graduated 2gether mind u. (:

32. Talk about no. 1 …

-shes one of a kind! dun get me started. shes my facebook addict. we can be on msn and also write on each other Wall's like deres no tmr. and massive superpoking wif her! and and neopets too! my lover advice is her man. shes really some hot stuff. hahahas.

33. Have you tried developing feelings with no. 8 ?

-MY SISTER? hahahahas. YEA. bud cannot work. sad right =)

34. Where does no. 9 lives in?

-sengkaaaaaang

35. What colour does no. 4 likes?

-ZOMG. i dunnoe! asyraf dun kill me!

36. Are no. 1 &5 bestfriends?

-sigh,NO. they dont even know each other.

37. Does no. 1 have any pets?

-eh nopes. the cats i suppose? bud i dunoe if dats hers.

38. Is no. 7 close to you?

-hell yeah we are tight! same frequency. his mum keeps saying about me marrying to him. wahahhas. thats how close we are. ROFL.

39. What is no. 10 doing now?

-stoning away...hahahahhas.


like finally im done! (:
my cuzzin is getting nikah 2nite. *sad-sad*
eh helo, is HAPPY SAD. not SAD-SAD la.

<3s.

vina(:

my brain is calling for a major halt.

ive been staring at the lappie screen for quite some time.

and all dat look back at me is my desktop.

even now,my eyes hurt to see facebook.

as in is starting to bore me down already.

well the thing about facebook is dat, it is only interesting when sumone post at ur wall.

bud after dat. dum di di dum...wad can u do next?

im bored of massive superpoking.

im bored of waiting for something to happen at facebook.

is like B-O-R-I-N-G!!

who the hell even came up wif the word boring aniwaes? hah! dat person is a genius!

because all i can tell u now is im bored. like really bored.

i wana do sumthing efficient rather than the dekstop staring back at me.

im trying to crack my brain on writing my essay for the scholarship.

bud i get zero. im gona try again. maybe something will pop out.

im seeing visions of SHMS from time to time again. sucky-sucky when u are nowhere near dat.

tmr is one of my cuzzy's wedding. as in "i officially announce u husband and wife".

and where the groom will slip on the wedding ring onto the brides wedding finger. *sobs*

bud not the wedding under the block and eat briyani. dat one is on saturday.

cant believe his turn is here. and he is so young.

i cant imagine myself aniwaes seven years down the road getting married.

to whom? well dats another mystery. seven years...hmm...interesting.

erh no wait, SCARY LA SEH. =/

so many things i want to do.

i want to do my degree,masters, travel around the world...

wah seven years enough meh to do all of those? haix i doubt so.

my cuzzin at the age of 28 is only gona do his PHD next year.

and i want to complete all dat by 24? wah i can really dream long-long.

and wedding bells when im 25?? hahhas. wad am i thinking really.

fantasy,dreams. sigh, who doesnt want all of those?

and we only get to live once.

live once to do something risky,dangerous,exciting,thrilling,meaningful.

all of us have different ways on how we want to live our life.

wads mine? well im not asking for anything dangerous at all,really.

bud yeah,i am already playing with risks,excitement,thrills.

so wads dere to complain?

there is,when things dun go ur way. oh come on...

how many times in the world does things go the way u want dem to be.?

maybe a handful? bud most of the time is the opposite dat is countless.

when the opposite happens, u will tend to be angry,disappointed,cursing,swearing.

instead of trying to rectify the matter,we make ourselves to be in a more displeasant state.

and for wad? only god knows.

i think half of the time i was cursing and swearing i have no idea why i was doing dat.

oh and and i have a inner voice. doesnt everyone?

my inner voice has been helpful most of the times.

always pull me back before i go off my top.

bud recently it hasnt been helping me? maybe my emotions was way beyond it.

i dunnoe la. weird,weird,weird.

darn,im still to make my resolutions for 2009.

so many things happening,dis is irritating. haha,see! get irritated cause i dont have time.

when actually now im using my time to blog in dis very long entry,now than i realise.

probably wasted three to five minutes of your time.

where it takes me like 15mins to type all dis random junk out?


bummer. love much (:

vina(:

december,december,december.

why does december have to such a pain in the ass?

work was crappy.

bud is the people whom i work wif that makes it enjoyable.

they put a smile on my face like nothing else matters.

i have to say i did a pretty good job by ditching my problems aside when i came to work.

bud once i step out is like "great reality is chasing onto me again"

i regret not working more this month.


i really dun understand some people at all.

they expect u to be perfect, a role model, or i dunnoe wad.

if u keep telling people,why dont u do it urself.

u have no idea wads the mess and people are saying about u.

they are trying to spare ur feelings.

and that is what ive been doing all this while.

i will reassure u, one day my bottle of emotions will screw off.

that will be the last day we will talk to each other.


ouh,amalina is feeling perfectly okay.
dun have to worry (:
cause when shes feeling perfectly okay,is the best u get out of her.

toodles.


vina(:

oh wait.

are u expecting an entry?

well guess wad?

heres my entry.

life is full of unexpected surprises.

i feel like cursing,banging,slamming or wadever.

bud oh forget it. look at the people who are reading my blog.

how many of u really bother wads going on wif peoples life?

lemme tell u for a record,dun bother. cause people dun give a damn.

so neither shuld u care wad i type in here.

bud funny how people can take things seriously when u start writing in.

and they start to feel guilty and thinking if ure refering to dem.

well if u feel guilty, good for u! congrats! so wads next? ur turn to be angry at the blogger?

oh come on, like as if u wuld have even put urself in the person shoes.

so stop wasting ur time and run along. or better dun drop by to read this blog animore.

cause if its gona give u a sick heartache than gladly close at the top right hand corner.

im telling u to do it nicely. im not even pointing out names or expressing in any topic.

im juz saying in general.

cause is about time people get the idea of wads a blog after all.

people like me use a blog to pour out our happiest and fucked up feelings.

cause apparently we dun have a voice like u other people to talk back.

now now,i dun wan u to get any wrong idea here. im not saying about anyone let me be clear.

i dun wan my selected readers to come find me and say why i blog like dat.

the reason why i chose u people to read my blog cause i trust u guys in every way that i can find.

bud if u cant seem to be agreeing wif wad i have to say,than lemme know okay.

as far am i concern, deres no reason for me to blog about my selected readers, well of course besides the point if i went out wif u guys or is a happy post. u get the idea.

so stop worring ur hell out like as if im going to eat u.

im sharing my half of the pain of dis entry wif sumone else. one of the selected readers.

i can only hope things will get better for the both of us.


vina *(too numb for a expression)

i miss alex.
i miss heidi.
i miss fatima.
i miss cecilia.
i miss whoever is at work.

it has been a week plus since i didnt work thanks to the long holiday.
tmr im going JB wif my family and cuzzins.
a one day trip.cant wait for tmr.
im waiting for shaker fries and dunkin' donuts! yums! =D

the computer is failing on me when i have to book for hotel rooms.
dun know and dont even want to know why.

facebook is haunting me and im haunting facebook.

the loser is still texting me when ive ignored him like since whatever.
cant u juz leave me alone for gods sake? wads wrong wif dis people.

zomg. and i saw my eye candy earlier at one of the weddings on sunday.
so embrassing cause i looked worned out by than.
i believe the whole family knows that ive a crush on him.
bud he doesnt look so eye-catching like how he used to be back then.
i dont know,i guess im juz tired trying to please myself.
and he was giving me that "whatever" attitude. PUH-LEASE.
i couldnt care less. im still gona see him dis saturday at my cuzzins wedding.



BYE.


vina(:

ouh and let me point out december is a very bad month for most of us.
every blog that i come across,
everione is having this kind of emotions

*SAD

*ANGRY/PISSED

*DEPRESSED

wads up man? like really? wads happening?
suddenley everione gets hit by dis kind of negative waves.

to everione who is feeling any negative waves:

Cheer up alryte?
eventhou im one of dem, i dun mind to hear out ur problems (:
juz find me on msn(im appearing offline) or text me or wherever u can find me.

chirstmas is around the corner,
bud i still cant sense the holiday spirit.
muz be all this emotions over-riding us. tsk.

vina

i woke up at 6:30 in the morning so i can be at the airport on time.
it was heidi's departure todae.
im gona miss her so much!
her scoldings and everything.
i can still remember my first day as a trainee at chinatown point.
she was the one who give me the "i-cant-be-bothered" look.
and i thought that we werent going to hit off.
bud as time passes we blend in perfectly well.
there were some misunderstandings along the way.
bud wads more important is dat the day that she flew off i get to see her smile and a warm hug.
please take care of ur little angel and show him/her that u will and u are a very strong independent mother to be.
reach for ur dreams and i will see u at canada! (:
i trust u will find someone who can take care of u than what u already have.
we will keep in touch. ='(
______________________________
i thought i was over this men issue.
bud really how cruel can they get?
u left her wif an innocent child and now u say all the blame goes to her.
i was so shocked when i heard dis.
i thought ure a very wise guy.
bud why do they always have to prove otherwise?
i have no rights to judge u or ur emotions.
bud at least spare a thought for ur own kid. *Sigh
______________________________

why do we keep stumbling onto the same situation that is happening everywhere?
doesnt anyone care?
so relationship now is juz all pleasure and dats it?
what is this world becoming to?
still no answers can be found.

vina:(

why are guys so complicating?
and i thought only we girls are? *shrugs

men nowdays always expect we ladies to make the first move.
whatever happened to the gentleman issue like way back.
u can hardly find guys who are like dat animore.
even if dere are,they are probably taken or couldnt be bothered wif anyone around dem.

bahhhhhh.
ive been on guys issue for like days.
im getting plainly tired.
not bored. is tired from all those complaining and swearing and cursing and grumbling.
im done for todae.

i wonder whats next to come?
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im so gona miss u heidi ='(
i juz hope i dont breakdown at the airport 8 in the morning!
ure gona be much missed and remembered.
love u till the very last drop.

vina:(

goodness.

it would have been 100,000 times easier..
if i had pluck up the courage to ask in the first place!
god damit.

ive got three answers solved immediateley by juz asking in a nice way.
*sighs* he muz have sensed my unhappiness.
im so "smart" in my own way.tsk.

and
im very much looking forward to our date tooooooooooo...........
bud is like so super long.................. =o

im feeling at peace again.

okay bye.
sorry dat i have to torment my dear readers. hehs.
believe when i say dere are more to come cursing and swearing him ;)


vina(:

i feel like

SLAMMING

SMASHING

RIPPING

TEARING

BANGING

whatever that i can get my hands on!

how the hell can sumone be the problem,
and yet be the one to solve the problem discreetly?

THIS IS FUCKING IRRITATING.
I DUN UNDERSTAND AT ALL.


sorry for the language.
i need a moment.
december is not a good month for me at all.

I HATE U LA.


vina):

told you it was juz a passing feeling.
all i need was some wise cuzzin of mine to wake me up.

i shouldnt be judgemental or trying so hard to see if he feels the same way about me.
everyones time will come when they are ready.


i shuld enjoy my life of being single when im given the opportunity now.
hahhas,cant belive i let myself be immersed in dat kind of situation.
kind surprised on how my emotions can get the better of me time and time again.

oh well. dats life. *shurgs*

toodles.

vina(:

yea,im back.

and im not slightly happy.

at first i was crazily wanting the trip to be over soon.

bud now..i wish it had lasted like 100,000 days or so.


the reason? simple.


it can only be a guy spell on me to make me feel so fucked up.

i was right all along. i did over-react too much la.

time for me to pick up the broken pieces and move on.


i am no one to judge u
for i mislead myself to believe something could happen.

oh well.

bye.


vina):

eh like scary la i cee my post yesterday.
i thought of deleting bud nvm la.
wads the point of a blog than.

anyhooooooooossssssssss


SELAMAT HARi RAYA HAJi~!
im gona stuff myself before departing off at night.

ps:you make me smile endlessly without me knowing.
is juz those little things.
okay i think im over-reacting again. bud i cant help it. ga ga ga ga. =0
gona miss ceeing u on facebook.hahhas.
im being so lovingly touching now.crap man.i better stop it.tsk.

TOODLES PEOPLE.
packing last minute now.

I CEE U GUYS BACK IN A WEEK! *muah
take careeeeeee.

sandi: thanks my dear for taking care of my neopets while im away.
yea im gona miss u too..not able to facebook u for the next one week
and ranting about neopets. *HUGS

amalina will be some lost human without internet and facebook for a week.
so depressing. okay bye.

vina(:

before i blast out of anger here.
i deeply apologised to my sweet readers for the language im gona use.
this language or vulagr is only known for people who dont deserve to be treated nicely.
Allah please forgive me. i cant help dis ):


FUCKING HELL. KNN. CCB.
i cant belive i went and drop by ur blog out of boredom.
oh hack and wad do i get?

lets' see...

"I thought u are different.Guess im wrong..bla bla bla bla(i dun wana type more)"

EH HELLO. REALITY CHECK HERE.
YES IM DIFFERENT.
BUD TOO BAD IM NOT UR DREAM GIRL OR SOME PRINCESS WHO CAN HEARS TO UR SICKENING POEMS FOR GODS SAKE.
LOOKS CAN BE DECIVING DUN U THINK SO?
U BARELY KNOW ME AND U THINK LOVE JUZ POPS OUT OF U FROM NOWHERE.
AND WHO THE HELL ARE U TO JUDGE ME?
GET UR FACTS RIGHT ABOUT ME, U LOSER.
GET A DAMN LIFE LA PLEASE.

WELCOME TO AMALINA'S LIFE.

god,this guy can really flare up my temper man.
shit.im frigging disgusted to the maximum. is there anything beyond maximum?
regret-regret-regret to drop by the loser emo blog.


okay im done.sorry if it has to scare anione -_-"
im not gonna let anyone or anything ruin my wholesome next week.

ps:now i wish i can rant to him and he will make me feel better.zzzzz.


vina >=(

*squeals*

YIPEEEEEEEEEEE~!!!!!

ive completed my Standard Chartered Womens 10k run todae!
and the most importantly i beat my Great Eastern timing by 15mins ahead!
hey.is an achievement okay.
for sumone who didnt train,i have to say im quite surprise myself.
i didnt stop running until i reached the 5km checkpoint.
i was pretty breathless by than so i did a fast pace walk frm 5-6km.
i pushed myself frm 6-7.5km. than 7.5-8.5 i had to do a fast walk again.
after that i ran all the way eventhou i felt my legs was gona break anytime.
superr happy can. yes. very contented.
my 2008 not going to go to waste after all.
i completed 2 runs this year.awwwwwwwwwweeeeeesssssssooooommmeeeeeeeee.
hhahas i wish i can hug myself sumhow,if only my hands were super long!
bud i defeniteley need sumone to massage my worned out legs. sighs. any volunteers? HAAS.
pictures will be uploaded later.


and and and and and

IVE GOTTEN FER MYSELF THE CREATIVE ZEN MOZAIC MP3 PLAYER!
im super happpyyyyy.
so tmr i wont be bored sitting in the coach for seven darn hours.
that reminds me im still yet to pack my mini luggage la seh. super lazy man me.

ps:the way u ask me where i was going,it really seems like u were missing me or something. muz be my mind wanting to think that way. bud a phrase wif those '?!' can realy tell a lot. i muz be over-reacting again. bud dun blame me. u always drop by on me on unexpected times. well till than i still await for ur comeback.
something muz be really wrong wif my mind to even type this.


im gona post a short entry tmr b4 i head off to genting.

muchloves,

vina(:

is a saturday.
a hot and humid saturday.
the weather is driving everione crazy honestly.
im having those splitting headaches.

*sighs* tmr is the Standard Chartered Marathon/Run.
well of course i join under the womens 10k okay.
im not that uberly fit to join even the half marathon.
im not surprise if my timing goes beyond my Great Eastern timing.
okay la,i have been saying about my timing like since dunnoe which post.
kinda excited for the race also actually.

and anyways,next week im off to genting already.
i wont be at work for the whole week.
dat means superbly less money for my january pay.
thiss suckks.
departing off on monday night.
and monday is hari raya haji also.
so can camwhore and see my cuzzys b4 i go for my getaway wif my family.

im totally broke as mentioned frm my previous post.
bud im still getting for myself a new mp3 player.
how is dat even possible? sumone juz slap me lights out can.
im cancelling all my movie dates and whatever appointment wif my fwens.
i even forced myself not to go to the minds cafe session wif a whole wacky bunch of people.
it is dat depressing. i need to learn to control my money if not i will never learn man.

so wad am i even doing wif my life.
i have no god damn idea.
besides the point i can tell u is : im living life simply my way.
i dun feel like working full-time yet.
the workdrive hasnt kick onto me yet.
im not bothered to apply for any work seriously.
more or less im juz applying for 3 schools scholarships.
no slightest clue wads the chance of me getting it. bud is my only bet to leave this country.
and im doing more of voluntary work here and dere.

my daily routine. is either go to work and kill my time dere.
or the most wake up late, surf the net. facebook-ing, neopets.
haha,dun bother to see my friendster la. is super dead can.
im not bothered to update or upload anything.
i really feel like closing my friendster down.
bud than there are quite a few of my friends who doesnt have facebook.
and they can only get to me thru friendster.
see how difficult this is. muz please both sides. sheesh.

ouh,ouh december is already here.
and is gona fast by superbly fast.
i wana see my eye candy sooooooooon on december 20!!!!!!!!! =D
not forgetting cuzzin getaway trip ^^
dat means 2008 is gona leave us behind.
for some reason im SO LOOKING FORWARD TO 2009.
i cant wait to ditch 2008 actually.
even i have no major plans for 2009...dere are a few events around.
lets see...my cuzzin is going over to london to do his PHD at oxford uni.
uhmm..sumones coming back frm summer holiday and flying off again during feb.
im voluntering for sum mass bicycle event thinghy.
scholarships results....sighs...
and and and and and and and and and and

I HAVE NO IDEA WADS NEXT.

dun ask my resolution for 2009.

-only when dat person walks out of ur life than u start finding em.
im not ur princess for gods sake.
the person ure searching for is NOT ME.
im tired to even involve myself in one.
and i wonder will i ever be ready to commit when the time comes?

vina(:

it sucks being sick.
and the humid in singapore is totally whacked man.
i think im going broke again this december.
so much for wanting to save money la.sighs.


looks like i have to miss heidi farewell party.
bud i will be back on time for the premier release of twilight in singapore.
so i have a movie date wif xinying,kimchi next week?
than wif igantius and cecilia like the following week?
than im still suppose to go to airport wif fatima and mas like end of month?

OKAY STOP.

IM TOTALLY BROKE. LIKE PENILESS. CRAP MAN.
suddenely feel like dun wan to go holiday or whatsoever anymore.

toodles :(

ps:i wish u can actually come back earlier. wad am i even thinking. u are juz a passer-by in my life.my existence is maybe juz a blink to ur eye. oh well.


vina(:

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